Prompted to Post About Koko cuz i Remember! an love bears an gorillas!

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I was prompted to post this today! A Conversation With Koko The Gorilla: Full DocumentarY; all because i saw another post-it with this photo below an i was very disturbed. was sad to see that….

Life is life to me an sentient beings are sentient beings to me also . so WTF? good they caught the guys but bad it has to happen; insane really!??

 

Russian customs seize 500+ bear paws heading to Chinese black market

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Preview Customs officers carrying out an anti-smuggling operation in Russia’s Far East came across a grisly discovery – 525 bear paws headed for China.
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jest seeing that pic without ever even readin da’ story was enuff for me to want to share Koko’s story, cuz well i love bears an gorillas also…. i am old enuff to remember when Koko was born, an have followed her life evr since. Was in high skewl then….an have followed a few bears lives also! this is a very kewl video doc concerning Koko, so if ya don’t know whom she is, watch this vid an meet Koko…..she is 45+ years old these days..an knows more sign language than i do! .

An Incredible an wunderful  Conversation With Koko The Gorilla: Full Documentary

🙂 bonus fer da day if ya nevr saw this…

Koko the Gorilla meets Robin Williams

an i guess if u watched both those vids ur going to tell me that animals don’t have feelins..well my dogs are wunderin lol ?

Koko the Gorilla Mourns Her Friend, Robin Williams

🙂

 

Narrow Gauge Railroad Ryde

~~Narrow is werd of da’ week @ werdpress werldwide weekly foto challenge..

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*** don’t be Narrow Minded if’n ya come to colorado, another recreational” activity besides smokin pot is ****

*Riding on a narrow gauge railroad; dat truly is a blast, a unique experience ya can take here in the Colorado rocky mountains year-round, ya step back in time frum the time in the am when ya step onto the train, it’s loud Steam Whistle can be heard for miles, an the train if u are on the ground when it comes by can be felt on the ground for miles also, an yes u can hear the train coming if ya put ur ear on the track frum many miles away, is a trip! 🙂  an all..there are 2 trains here in our area that are “NARROW GAUGE” they were called, an steam powered,,,they bop along bout 35 – 60 mph on ur trip frum Durango to Silverton or the other train in Chama…I have yet to be on that train yet, have ridin on this train a few times now at various times of the year, an adventure i would highly recommend if ya visit the 4 corners area of Colorado Sumday…

Take care an have a splendid week Werld frum da’ Q

will have to do a post-it sumday when i come across my 35mm stuff datz gots a couple of rolls i have taken on dis’ Ol’ train

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From spaghetti to the quiet alley behind your house, this week show us something narrow.

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Bi-Polar People are yes Very Hard to LOVE & Live With Be Patient with them

THE END IS NEAR!
&
EVERYTHING WILL BE TURNED INSIDE OUT!
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Impossible Worlds is sumtimes what it feels like having  bi-polar mates an friends…
Somehow my genetics an everything i attract them…over the years, lived with quite a few. Those whom know they are bi-polar an also those that do not know they are, it is a very weird dis-ease….an i believe it is totally curable! even if those whom have it don’t believe me or do have it an will not read me….theres always 2 sides 2 every story the way i see it.an is what i like bout bi-polars, they can also see both sides! .which side {love er fear} er {positive verses negative}is correct an how to deal with it is whats important to me.
EVERYTHING WILL BE TURNED INSIDE OUT! for the person whom might have it an agree with me that there is a way to correct the symptoms an even the causes in over an with a bit a time, for those whom do not know anything bout bi-polar ilness here is an some info that might help shed some light on what they term as bi-polar…I truly feel for the opnes out there that been told like me an others they might be suffering frum this disease, well it might jest be a simple case of the jimi disease! Manic Depression…an yes it is curable…i know many folks whom have corrected the problems an live a normal lifestyle in my book…others well, they don’t even have a clue they have the disease, an others have been diagnosed with it but ignore the gravity of the situation they are in and disobey docs orders ..etc etc..an do the program their own way or no way at all…an escape with alcohol, which only makes the problem werse, well it did for me, so is why i had to stop drinking years ago, so i would not have 2 distinct personalities, an also so i could do normal things like fly – ride my motorcycle an drive my car..although many folks i know with the disease, well, some simply do not wish to be cured, is sad cuz they are such beautiful ladies an guys inside, sad to see them in the viscous cycle of not being able to get a grip on the situation..others i am very proud of cuz they have a grip on life good, even if they don’t think so, an a very unique way at lewking at the werld, one gewd thing to me bout a good bi-polar that is aware is that they know the difference between right an wrong an always choose the mostest correct thing to do even if might be what their mind wants them to do.an they know the difference between love an fear ..an always choose love..over the anger an laugh off the anger…”believe it er not” …so..heres a bit of info on this disease…..correct me if i am wrong an add any input u might wish…I know what i can do is Pray for the ones i choose to love, whether or not they have bi-polar illness or not, the ones that do, well in time i hope they find their way to their own soul, learn to love themselves as much as i might an well, then it ‘ll be all good then……...
“Believe it er not!”

Bipolar Disorder

Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks.

There are four basic types of bipolar disorder; all of them involve clear changes in mood, energy, and activity levels. These moods range from periods of extremely “up,” elated, and energized behavior (known as manic episodes) to very sad, “down,” or hopeless periods (known as depressive episodes). Less severe manic periods are known as hypomanic episodes.

  • Bipolar I Disorder— defined by manic episodes that last at least 7 days, or by manic symptoms that are so severe that the person needs immediate hospital care. Usually, depressive episodes occur as well, typically lasting at least 2 weeks. Episodes of depression with mixed features (having depression and manic symptoms at the same time) are also possible.
  • Bipolar II Disorder— defined by a pattern of depressive episodes and hypomanic episodes, but not the full-blown manic episodes described above.
  • Cyclothymic Disorder (also called cyclothymia)— defined by numerous periods of hypomanic symptoms as well numerous periods of depressive symptoms lasting for at least 2 years (1 year in children and adolescents). However, the symptoms do not meet the diagnostic requirements for a hypomanic episode and a depressive episode.
  • Other Specified and Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorders— defined by bipolar disorder symptoms that do not match the three categories listed above.
  • Signs and Symptoms

    People with bipolar disorder experience periods of unusually intense emotion, changes in sleep patterns and activity levels, and unusual behaviors. These distinct periods are called “mood episodes.” Mood episodes are drastically different from the moods and behaviors that are typical for the person. Extreme changes in energy, activity, and sleep go along with mood episodes.

    People having a manic episode may: People having a depressive episode may:
    • Feel very “up,” “high,” or elated
    • Have a lot of energy
    • Have increased activity levels
    • Feel “jumpy” or “wired”
    • Have trouble sleeping
    • Become more active than usual
    • Talk really fast about a lot of different things
    • Be agitated, irritable, or “touchy”
    • Feel like their thoughts are going very fast
    • Think they can do a lot of things at once
    • Do risky things, like spend a lot of money or have reckless sex
    • Feel very sad, down, empty, or hopeless
    • Have very little energy
    • Have decreased activity levels
    • Have trouble sleeping, they may sleep too little or too much
    • Feel like they can’t enjoy anything
    • Feel worried and empty
    • Have trouble concentrating
    • Forget things a lot
    • Eat too much or too little
    • Feel tired or “slowed down”
    • Think about death or suicide
    Sometimes a mood episode includes symptoms of both manic and depressive symptoms. This is called an episode with mixed features. People experiencing an episode with mixed features may feel very sad, empty, or hopeless, while at the same time feeling extremely energized.Bipolar disorder can be present even when mood swings are less extreme. For example, some people with bipolar disorder experience hypomania, a less severe form of mania. During a hypomanic episode, an individual may feel very good, be highly productive, and function well. The person may not feel that anything is wrong, but family and friends may recognize the mood swings and/or changes in activity levels as possible bipolar disorder. Without proper treatment, people with hypomania may develop severe mania or depression.

    Diagnosis

    Proper diagnosis and treatment help people with bipolar disorder lead healthy and productive lives. Talking with a doctor or other licensed mental health professional is the first step for anyone who thinks he or she may have bipolar disorder. The doctor can complete a physical exam to rule out other conditions. If the problems are not caused by other illnesses, the doctor may conduct a mental health evaluation or provide a referral to a trained mental health professional, such as a psychiatrist, who is experienced in diagnosing and treating bipolar disorder.

    Note for Health Care Providers: People with bipolar disorder are more likely to seek help when they are depressed than when experiencing mania or hypomania. Therefore, a careful medical history is needed to ensure that bipolar disorder is not mistakenly diagnosed as major depression. Unlike people with bipolar disorder, people who have depression only (also called unipolar depression) do not experience mania. They may, however, experience some manic symptoms at the same time, which is also known as major depressive disorder with mixed features.

    Bipolar Disorder and Other Illnesses

    Some bipolar disorder symptoms are similar to other illnesses, which can make it hard for a doctor to make a diagnosis. In addition, many people have bipolar disorder along with another illness such as anxiety disorder, substance abuse, or an eating disorder. People with bipolar disorder are also at higher risk for thyroid disease, migraine headaches, heart disease, diabetes, obesity, and other physical illnesses.

    Psychosis: Sometimes, a person with severe episodes of mania or depression also has psychotic symptoms, such as hallucinations or delusions. The psychotic symptoms tend to match the person’s extreme mood. For example:

    • Someone having psychotic symptoms during a manic episode may believe she is famous, has a lot of money, or has special powers.
    • Someone having psychotic symptoms during a depressive episode may believe he is ruined and penniless, or that he has committed a crime.

    As a result, people with bipolar disorder who also have psychotic symptoms are sometimes misdiagnosed with schizophrenia.

    Anxiety and ADHD: Anxiety disorders and attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) are often diagnosed among people with bipolar disorder.

    Substance Abuse: People with bipolar disorder may also misuse alcohol or drugs, have relationship problems, or perform poorly in school or at work. Family, friends and people experiencing symptoms may not recognize these problems as signs of a major mental illness such as bipolar disorder.

    Risk Factors

    Scientists are studying the possible causes of bipolar disorder. Most agree that there is no single cause. Instead, it is likely that many factors contribute to the illness or increase risk.

    Brain Structure and Functioning: Some studies show how the brains of people with bipolar disorder may differ from the brains of healthy people or people with other mental disorders. Learning more about these differences, along with new information from genetic studies, helps scientists better understand bipolar disorder and predict which types of treatment will work most effectively.

    Genetics: Some research suggests that people with certain genes are more likely to develop bipolar disorder than others. But genes are not the only risk factor for bipolar disorder. Studies of identical twins have shown that even if one twin develops bipolar disorder, the other twin does not always develop the disorder, despite the fact that identical twins share all of the same genes.

    Family History: Bipolar disorder tends to run in families. Children with a parent or sibling who has bipolar disorder are much more likely to develop the illness, compared with children who do not have a family history of the disorder. However, it is important to note that most people with a family history of bipolar disorder will not develop the illness.

    Treatments and Therapies

    Treatment helps many people—even those with the most severe forms of bipolar disorder—gain better control of their mood swings and other bipolar symptoms. An effective treatment plan usually includes a combination of medication and psychotherapy (also called “talk therapy”). Bipolar disorder is a lifelong illness. Episodes of mania and depression typically come back over time. Between episodes, many people with bipolar disorder are free of mood changes, but some people may have lingering symptoms. Long-term, continuous treatment helps to control these symptoms.

    Medications

    Different types of medications can help control symptoms of bipolar disorder. An individual may need to try several different medications before finding ones that work best.

    Medications generally used to treat bipolar disorder include:

    • Mood stabilizers
    • Atypical antipsychotics
    • Antidepressants

    Anyone taking a medication should:

    • Talk with a doctor or a pharmacist to understand the risks and benefits of the medication
    • Report any concerns about side effects to a doctor right away. The doctor may need to change the dose or try a different medication.
    • Avoid stopping a medication without talking to a doctor first. Suddenly stopping a medication may lead to “rebound” or worsening of bipolar disorder symptoms. Other uncomfortable or potentially dangerous withdrawal effects are also possible.
    • Report serious side effects to the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) MedWatch Adverse Event Reporting program online at http://www.fda.gov/Safety/MedWatch  or by phone at 1-800-332-1088. Clients and doctors may send reports.

    For basic information about medications, visit the NIMH Mental Health Medications webpage. For the most up-to-date information on medications, side effects, and warnings, visit the FDA website .

    Psychotherapy

    When done in combination with medication, psychotherapy (also called “talk therapy”) can be an effective treatment for bipolar disorder. It can provide support, education, and guidance to people with bipolar disorder and their families. Some psychotherapy treatments used to treat bipolar disorder include:

    • Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT)
    • Family-focused therapy
    • Interpersonal and social rhythm therapy
    • Psychoeducation

    Visit the NIMH Psychotherapies webpage to learn about the various types of psychotherapies.

    Other Treatment Options

    Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT): ECT can provide relief for people with severe bipolar disorder who have not been able to recover with other treatments. Sometimes ECT is used for bipolar symptoms when other medical conditions, including pregnancy, make taking medications too risky. ECT may cause some short-term side effects, including confusion, disorientation, and memory loss. People with bipolar disorder should discuss possible benefits and risks of ECT with a qualified health professional.

    Sleep Medications: People with bipolar disorder who have trouble sleeping usually find that treatment is helpful. However, if sleeplessness does not improve, a doctor may suggest a change in medications. If the problem continues, the doctor may prescribe sedatives or other sleep medications.

    Supplements: Not much research has been conducted on herbal or natural supplements and how they may affect bipolar disorder.

    It is important for a doctor to know about all prescription drugs, over-the-counter medications, and supplements a client is taking. Certain medications and supplements taken together may cause unwanted or dangerous effects.

    Keeping a Life Chart: Even with proper treatment, mood changes can occur. Treatment is more effective when a client and doctor work closely together and talk openly about concerns and choices. Keeping a life chart that records daily mood symptoms, treatments, sleep patterns, and life events can help clients and doctors track and treat bipolar disorder most effectively.

    Marijuana

    i personally find that people that have been struggling with or are possibly bi-polar an or has the symptoms..that well.pot seems to stabalize it an make one more normal than all the different drugs they give one for “THE CURE” seems to calm down all the symptoms..when they are forced by the system not to smoke pot,,,they are WAY WERSE OFF! JEST MY 2 CENTS WERTH BY LIVING WITH EM FOR SO MANY YEARS! 🙂

    MOST: SOURCES FOR THIS ARTICLE ARE FOUND BELOW!

    Finding Treatment

    • A family doctor is a good resource and can be the first stop in searching for help.
    • For general information on mental health and to find local treatment services, call the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) Treatment Referral Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357).
    • The SAMHSA website has a Behavioral Health Treatment Services Locator  that can search for treatment information by address, city, or ZIP code.
    • Visit the NIMH’s Help for Mental Illnesses webpage for more information and resources.

    For Immediate Help

    If You Are in Crisis: Call the toll-free National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. The service is available to anyone. All calls are confidential.

    If you are thinking about harming yourself or thinking about suicide:

    • Tell someone who can help right away
    • Call your licensed mental health professional if you are already working with one
    • Call your doctor
    • Go to the nearest hospital emergency department

    If a loved one is considering suicide:

    • Do not leave him or her alone
    • Try to get your loved one to seek immediate help from a doctor or the nearest hospital emergency room, or call 911
    • Remove access to firearms or other potential tools for suicide, including medications


ICU an A Radio-Active Pink Bear Imagine Dragons an a Shepard of Fire

Jesta Checkin in here wit gratitude 2 my reflections! 🙂

a friend is still alive! an wit me…all systems go here an dere’ She felt like da’ pink bear  an i felt like da’ guy in da’ cage behind da bars. While she layed in durango icu…times like this all i can do is pray fer the other! …such as life sumtimes, so time fer a couple of vids to lighten things up a bit in Q’s werld here..enjoy if’n ya like rock…i do 🙂 ..

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Imagine Dragons – Radioactive…has over 1/2 a billion views…has hit the top ten charts in da’ 4 corners multiple times, an nikki sixx plays it to “death” lol..So along with eyes wide open an “Shepard of fire“22,111,031 views – these  songs seems to be heard here bout 4 times a day er more it appears..

on our local 96.9 da’ big dog rocks!.

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da’ big dog 96.9 s a I-heart Radio station also..Listen to nikki sixx an jen nightly

PS; i was outa touch fer a few days cuza my best friend ended up in da hospital an almost went to see the other side of life..my phone time is used up 4 outgoin calls still till 8-3-2016 also…so call if’n ya wish – i jest can’t call out..

PEACE 2 U frum da’ Q..

Strangest things happen at the strangest times it appears also…many lessons in Love-truth-honor-respect-an whats important in life comes to mind today, Had to drop a note to let my closest that knew all is well with her an she will be A-OK!

all my love 2 U my best friend.

8 days a week! thanks fer bein U..she knows who she be. an i am happy she is is outa icu an still alive an well to be able to read this.

nuff said!

Q

Banned -frum TV- Disney UFO Documentary – Alien Encounters

Another one fer the

“BELIEVE IT ER NOT!” category!

This film was shown only once, and with no advance notice on stations in only five US cities. The original Michael Eisner intro hit me right in the nostalgia. is a fun watch…an well, if i don’t call ya back an ya had my # an tried, i didn’t get abducted, but did get to pay another visit to ER LoL .same ol chit diff month an week is all…..So,  jest no phone outgoing calls here till 8-3-2016…my tele bandwidth got all eaten up by an unhappy texter an caller the other day.

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Lost Walt Disney UFO Documentary, Alien Encounters: In March of 1995, Walt Disney Television aired an intriguing UFO special. This highly unusual UFO video special presents UFOs and alien visitation to our planet as a matter of fact.

At first glance, the special appears to be a promotion of the “New Tomorrowland” area, in particular the new “Alien Encounters” ride. This was in the mid 90’s. (This venture was cancelled almost immediately)

However, upon closer inspection…it is much more. The entire program, which opens with a short segment by Disney CEO Michael Eisner, does not even question the existence of UFOs and a major UFO cover-up. In fact, at times it has A Tone Of ridicule Towards Those Who Still Deny That UFO’s exist; quite unique ___
“”It’s easily located today online, but the circumstances of its production and (highly limited) distribution, and its oddly firm view of the reality of the phenomenon, make it decidedly weird and unique.””

“”If all Disney wanted to do was promote its new theme park ride with an alien theme, they needn’t have gone to nearly as much trouble. As it is, it’s almost like the ride-promo mission was used as a Trojan horse / excuse to deliver a lot more subversive and revolutionary information. Maybe this really was a disclosure exercise gone awry, maybe it was out-of-control filmmakers who produced an end product the Disney chiefs didn’t know what to make of. But it sure is fun speculating, and the show has since become a UFO conspiracy’ staple — another tantalizing hint of the truth, allegedly.”

I’ve died twice an come back 2 tell bout it – an more frum Quarksire

Posted this cuz i had a conversation wit my mother last night bout these happenings in my life an were still on my mind. Feel free to comment, i’d love to hear what some of my serious readers think an er believe. So, A few unbelievables for those skeptics of mikeys life here! 4 i have somehow had the fortunate or unfortunate experience to have experienced these things i shall post about here!…”believe it er not”
ONLY FER DA SERIOUS READER AN FOLLOWER I GUESS OF DA” Q….Will try not to get to graphic fer ya..or make this too long or bore ya!.an well attempt to watch my grammer! lol…
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…Once upon a tyme;around 3 am
I left my body: but;
I waz not alone;
i was suspended in air
while a nurse ran screaming for the
medics an staff to bring da KIT!
She had realized i was Flat Lined________________
watching frum above doctors came a scrambling
medics an nurses poured in all to help
Watched them break out the KIT…
The Defib machine…..
Watched them jolt this body on the table
which i then realized was me!!!!!
Think i didn’t believe er something…being in another state
shaking my senses it did, a feeling i cannot describe
I watched as They geared up an did it again, the defib jolt……
that was when i blacked out so to say…….
I aroze awake the next morning……
with 180 staples an stiches across my scalp an head…..
an a turbine i wore for weeks till it healed……lol.
Told the doctors what i saw an what happened in the operating room….
they claimed i was flatlined all that time…..
but my accounting of what happened correlated with what did!
they were amazed truly…..an prolly the only ones that truly believed in me
then an even to now bout this subjekt….

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Well that fact is that was the second time in 2 years that they had to shock me back to life…the time before that I thought i was dreaming er something when it happened….Jolted out of my body by a barstool upside the head, I was again then dead…..for 12 minutes plus they say,,till the medics got there an fibbed me back with a couple of jolts then….The furst time that time was not so vivid of being out of my body with a memory….I didn’t hover above the scene etc etc…but was like i was simply gone on a voyage…hard to explain, but that was the first time i ever had the sensation that I DO NOT DIE……. for some this seems unbelievable…well, is what it is to me,
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UFO Triangle Recorded Over Pagosa Springs, Colorado
Just as true as the night i saw an watched “alien” crafts of some kind fly all over my community here ….they did it for a couple of hours;;;;;;;;.any national news coverage.NOT!!!!! it was even captured on video an available to watch at you tube, but no one still believes……these lightballs came right ionto my front yard,,,became small an dense little rectangle things bout 4 er 5 ft apart flew round my place a bit …rose up outa the trees got bigger an turned bluish white an sped away at a very fast rate of speed..friends were calling me from town etc etc telling me what they were seeing also…some of the light balls would merge an change colors

Part 2 of 3 – Spectacular Light Ships (New Edition) Over Roof Tops Pagosa Springs CO June 17 2011

also..never seen anything like it….


Another night i was standing in the wilderness here doing what bears do best…taking a “P” in da woods…an i lewked up an silent a could be a big giant triangle black objekt,,,,twice the size of a b2 bomber flew over my head very slowly bout 300 feet above the ground er so, “NO SOUND AT ALL!” absolutely quite…but it was there, i was not imagining this it was jest what it was….a big giant triangle black objekt the size of a football field or more….what was it i don’t know..but i know what i saw!
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Another believe it er not incident……I could write a book bout an jest might some day if i evr get “roundtuit” are the incidents where till death do us part kinna things take place.er not i assume…..I was only 22 years old at the time “the first time this happened” an well it was a terrible experience an morning for me….I had spent the evening before with my fiance helping her get home after a drug over dose…someone had spiked her cocaine with pcp….an she had a bad trip…got her home bout 2 am finally after a bad evening etc etc is a book in itself…at 7am i woke to VIVID REAL LIFE LIKE DREAM OF ME BEING WITH HER….in another spot on the planet, where we spent a lot of dream time..i remember the dream vividly still today!…i was shocked awake with fear that something was wrong at her place…across the desert from me…i was 10 miles away…i called out there no answer… so i drove out there to trade her truck for my motorcycle…on the way out there her fathers Cadillac passed me going th opposite direction going very fast,,, i thought it was jest pops heading to the store…when i got there i noticed the back door open…proceeded to walk in an without getting to graphic well found dad in the furst bedroom with his hand on the shotgun an laying dead….then walked into the living room to find my sharon..my fiance’ on the floor naked raped an dead..shot in the middle of the head with a 22…When i touched her to roll her over an cover her i t was at that moment i realized “WE ARE A HOLY SPIRIT” I WAS ZAPPED so to say….Believe it er not.besides being floored by the situation an disaster in my mind i was going through, i realized she jest entered me……she clamed my senses believe it er not an i got a grip an called the proper authorities…When the cops got there well, they arrested me, thinking i did it? an was making up a story…….i spent next 12 hours or so in interogation and they drove me to los angeles an gave me a lie detector test..during which time they spotted the cadillac of the fathers hundreds of miles away, an the guy had killed some people in a campground..so they took me back to the ranch…all the while i kept hearing this voice tell me I told u it would be okay mikey??.all the time this happened an for the next few months there was another “VOICE” in my body an head .use to get so bad i would have virtual arguments an conversations with this spirit…an i was always “wrong” or being corrected?..was about 3 months at the ranch taking care of it alone after her death, til i got her to get out of ME!!!! BELIEVE IT ER NOT!!!! was crying one day an told her inside i could not handle this anymore no matter what our agreements were…an would she please find her way home to god…..instantly i felt in my chest a release…and physically saw a orange bluish bright light leave my chest an fly across the desert.i fell to the ground weeping!!!!!!! BUT SHE WAS GONE!!!!!! no one believed me bout this for years especially my furst wife after her…she resented that i had evr had a “CRAZY” experience like this…..
Well, time rolls forward an after being shocked back to life twice…guess i still didn’t believe in this holy spirit thing!!!!!!!That we are a spirit living inside this body of ours..another 2 be wife in 2001 an i had made agreements bout to death do us part also, an well, one night i rescued” her drunk frum our local bar an took her home…was a trying experience, she was like 3.0 on the alcohol scale…the police showed, helped get her into the house, which pissed her off…i let her be inside, she passed out on the bed, figured i’d go to my place an get some stuff an come back after she rested a few hours, was like 3 am…i went to my house, napped out a few, knowing she was ok on the bed at her house right? well, once again I had vivid dreams for which seemed like an eternity, i was with her an we were flying al over the werld in our dreams….When i woke because of my past 20 years before i rushed to her house when she did not anser the phone..i walked in to find a bottle of anti psychotic pills..her psyche had given here…all over the floor an her on the floor dead also, she had woke in the night drunk an took some 😦  I could tell she had been dead a couple of hours when i rolled her over, but guess what? same thing that happened 20 years before happened again…when i touched her an rolled her over i got ZAPPED.an felt like something new was in my chest!!besides pain an every other emotion i could have….i heard her yell at me even DON”t get mad mikey!..well i did ,,i busted up over it an even hurt my hand an all beating on her truck!!!!.Kinna hard to write this even, a few years ago, i wasn’t healed enuff to evr have wrote bout this….Anyhow…point here is that well, for about 3 months i was talked to yelled at an corr4eected by this “HOLY SPIRIT” inside me…i could not handle it anymore.i had an argument inside my head with this spirit one night, an the spirit told me i should go meet this person i was shown a pic of in “PERU” of all places….i drove frum where i was staying out to our land we had where her an i made our “to death will we part” agreements…an well grabbed a pic of her an threw it down on the coffee table an asked her to go home where she belonged an leave me alone i could not a handle it anymore….INSTANTLY.whaM..OUT OF MY CHEST.same thing….a whitish bluish light streamed out of me across my front yard an up the mountainside an into the sky! i felt relief.layed there an cried.went to peru 3 weeks later..an had the time of my life…an there also learned many things bout humankind an culture that changed & shocked me 4 evr……..In da museo de oro.museum of gold in peru..i get chills typing bout it here.was the coolest stufff…on the 4 level down..there were decomposed bodies in glass enclosures,,,that well, were 30,000 years old..but strange thing is the bodies, showed signs of operations, screws in legs skull plates made out of gold etc etc an bones repaired with gold screws…they even have all the medical instruments of the time used then also on display, much similar to ours today same tools….amazing…there was one body in particular which dated itself there ..it had both copper an gold all through out for various repairs…the lady giving the presentation, said this man obviously lived through the age where they found copper to be bad in the body an changed over to gold, an that it was most likely all hios copper repairs an plates that killed him.amazing stuff…an got lotsa lessons whilst in Peru bout the UFO CULTURE THERE AN what they say the UFO’s created thousands of years ago..so was a believe it er not trip…an ever since i have had different perceptions bout my life an the life of humankind also…..

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SO, longer story made short here…….The point of this post-it is to inform my readers of how my mind werks to a certain extent…an also to let anyone that reads me know well, WE DO NOT DIE!!!WE JEST CHANGE OUR ADDRESS IN THE UNIVERSE!! THAT IS ONCE WE CHOOSE TO LEAVE THIS REALM….
sINCE THEN I HAD MY SHAMAN FRIEND CROW DIE ON ME .I RETRIEVED HIS BODY FRUM HIS ROOM, OPENED HIS HOUSE AN FURST TO TOUCH HIM AN ROLL HIM OVER ALSO.after he a was dead fer  a day plus! AN GUESS WHAT!?? WELL, IS ANOTHER STORY COMPLETELY DIFFERENT BUT VERY SIMILAR…I could write a book bout the next 3 months after he died also, till he left LOL>..all the nights he gave me massages etc etc.believe it er not!!!!!!!!He taught me more than any master ever did or ever will prolly i believe…AN ALL THE BEFORE EVENTS HAD TO HAPPEN TO BRING ME TO THE NOW!!!!!!I DO NOT PRESUME TO KNOW IT ALL BY ANY MEANS.I ONLY KNOW WHAT I HAVE EXPERIENCED….But as crow my healer shaman friend once told me…….Its very subtle, mikey but right here, this Quantum Human energy field…frum da’ subspace….!!!!!..Can see it feel it sense it smell it even in a way when u get SENSUAL!” ENUFF!..
He used to say
PAY ATTENTION…….to the NOTHINGNESS.then u shall hear it all!
FORGIVE ALL THE OTHER SHIT AN MOVE ON WITH LOVE!!!!!!! ALL ONE CAN DO!!!
LOVE UR LIFE FOR WHATEVR IT IS

AN DO THE BEST ONE CAN

AN BE THE BEST MAN  or wooman ONE CAN BE,

ALL YA CAN DO..

AN ABOVE.ALLLL THINGSSSSSSSS..

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“NO FEAR!”oh an stop drinking if u do! simple as that!

Thata way ya can
…. FLY SAFELY…

OVER AN OUT FRUM DA’ Q…

LOOK AT YOURSELF!

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I THOUGHT THIS 2 BE TRUE – Even if others do not!

sOME PEOPLE ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THE ONE up! on others.THEY HAVE TO TALK DOWN TO YA….EVEN WHEN THEY act AS THOUGH THEY ARE BEING SUPPORTIVE, IF THEY CANNOT BOOST THEIR EGO BY BEING RIGHT IN ANY GIVEN SITUATION, WELL THEN THEY HAVE TO DEMEAN AN ASSAULT YA WITH WERDS….AN ACCUSE YA OF DOING THE EXACT THING THAT THEY THEMSELVES DO??can we call the kettle blacker? ? indifference is the CRIME HERE!
Can or does anyone ever really bother to lewk at themselves i wunder

LEWK @ uRSELF!!!!!!!!!!

SOME PEOPLE IN THE WERLD THINK THE WERLD OWES THEM EVRYTHING, CUZ THEY DID WHATEVR THEY DID IN THE PAST ? GOOD BAD ER INDIFFERENTder these days??????Always finding for, an lewkin for fault in others is the nature of folks like this really….Ya can love em’ with all ur heart an soul an werk for them all they wanted ya to, but well, in the end that was not ever good enuff?????
Pointing the fingers at others an applying blame where it does not need to be applied is the normal human nature of these people. They will tell ya they are not like that ; but after ya spend some time with them …sumtimes takes weeks or months, well then, when they FEEL? insulted or slammed because something did not go right, well who is to blame, the other in thier eyes….When they are having a bad day or week or month, be careful, U might be the brunt of the anger they carry in thier heart for others, which has nothing to do with U!…seems to be a fact of life these days, after hanging out long enuff with someone ya do see the character defects they have in the personal nature they carry in thier soul an heart! an the true colors show up eventually, the selfishness ME_ITIS type of attitude….All for a buck or 2 more ussually in the end is the way it ussually werks out with these kinna folks, those who are never wrong but always right, an always above ya an talk down to ya all the time, but they can’t see thier own heart an soul because they are to busy demeaning others for one thing or another. Truly sucks when arrogance an false PRIDE! an always having to be the RIGHT ONE rules! These kinna folks expect friends to work for FREE! …friends are supposed to do it for nothing i have heard in the past from more than one soul with this kinna character defect! To be truly appreciated by people like this is truly hard. Even when ya have werked more than ur fair share for the products or cash given for the services. All it takes is one time; one TIME of u calling them on thier own crap…an ya will be thrown out of thier reality, an be the one in the wrong! kinna insidious really to me, That not many people take the time to LOOK AT THEMSELVES! They would rather be boisterous an demanding, so the EGO { Edging god out} wins for the day!? 😦 sad deal really.users an abusers ..i watch this time an time again, people whom always complain an hardly ever thank. an are rarely thankful!..THEY KNOW NOT THE VALUE OF grattitide!….but sure know how to throw stones when things do not go thier way! Can dish it out but can’t take a werd back in retaliation at thier rudenesssssssssss!

So? do u live with or hang out with someone that is always NEGATIVE, an has a negative viewpoint bout most things in life?…where most of the conversations are always bout how others are so fucked up er whatevr…..always defending thier way or beliefs bout themselves in one way or another, an never taking responsibility to jest BE an have a normal OUTLOOK on things…..some are always complainers, an nothing will ever be right for them no matter what ya do ya will never truly satisfy them, they will surely cut ya off once they feel indebted to you….or things do not werk out the way they wanted them to..tHEY WILL GET AT YA WHEN THEY THINK THEY OWE U ZIP FOR ALL U DONE ?:( DON’T WANNA GET INDEBTED TO YA THEY DON’T THATS FER SURE…..
These kinna men an women always need to PROVE THEY ARE SUPERIOR to ya in one way or another,,,,fact of life! In the end ussually – an all things must end, good an bad…….but with these kind of people in the end? the only true friends they end up having are the ones that will put up with listening to them whine an be negative about everything under the sun……..
Today was one of those kind of days fer me here! frum the time i got moving in life…i was slighted for BEING ME…in so many ways…could not say much of anything during the day without the negative comments being part of thier reality. Being bitched at an ridiculed for evrey thing one does???is not a fun way to go about ur days..within the furst hour of so of hanging out with this person in QUESTION! not a reflection of me?:( i was CORRECTED probably 3 er 4 times. for evry move i made or many things i said? The only real conversations had were me responding to ridicule an complaints the best way i could?
Putting words in my mouth an saying i thought something i never thought of or said something i never really said, well that truly pisses me offffffffff…..there comes a time when ur hot an bothered an tired of listening to someone telling ya everything ya are doing is wrong an they know a better way…..ya blatently tell this person ya see why they have the problems they do an did in thier life in the past! an even present…then of course THEY WILL BLOW UP ON YA AN PUT WERDS IN UR MOUTH an tell ya ya said things ya never even thought of!!!

.presumtiousness is the root of all evil{against live} here……….

So they ASSUME THINGS enuff to tell ya ya CALL THEM A LIAR OR NAME THEY ABHORE!…when ya nevr said such a thing….Defensiveness an RIGHTNESS is more important to them at this point than friendship…they even ridicule that! so THEy can BE RIGHT!!!!!!!!!an ESCALATING IT INTO AN ARGUMENT OR A U SAID THIS OR THAT SCREAMING MATCH IS THIER NATURE!!!!!!!SIGNS OF THE PAST COMING BACK TO HAUNT THEM an FEAR is the true reality here! an doing the same things over an over as years before,an expecting different results.
RUDENESS AN SHUTTING ONE OFF AN NOT ALLOWING THE OTHER TO SPEAK AN BEING SHORT SIGHTED IS THE TRUE NATURE HERE!
THIS WAY THE EGO WINSSSSSSSSSSS! in thier heart an brain…….

i CALL IT false pride………..AN WHEN FALSE PRIDE WINS THE PERSON WITH IT looses!!!!!!!

sOME PEOPLE ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THE ONE up! on others.THEY HAVE TO TALK DOWN TO YA….EVEN WHEN THEY act AS THOUGH THEY ARE BEING SUPPORTIVE, IF THEY CANNOT BOOST THIER EGO BY BEING RIGHT IN ANY GIVEN SITUATION, WELL THEN THEY HAVE TO DEMEAN AN ASSAULT YA WITH WERDS….AN ACCUSE YA OF DOING THE EXACT THING THAT THEY THEMSELVES DO??can we call the kettle blacker? ? indifference is the CRIME HERE!
Can or does anyone ever really bother to lewk at themselves i wunLEWK @ uRSELF!!!!!!!!!!

SOME PEOPLE IN THE WERLD THINK THE WERLD OWES THEM EVRYTHING, CUZ THEY DID WHATEVR THEY DID IN THE PAST ? GOOD BAD ER INDIFFERENTder these days??????Always finding for, an lewkin for fault in others is the nature of folks like this really….Ya can love em’ with all ur heart an soul an werk for them all they wanted ya to, but well, in the end that was not ever good enuff?????
Pointing the fingers at others an applying blame where it does not need to be applied is the normal human nature of these people. They will tell ya they are not like that ; but after ya spend some time with them …sumtimes takes weeks or months, well then, when they FEEL? insulted or slammed because something did not go right, well who is to blame, the other in thier eyes….When they are having a bad day or week or month, be careful, U might be the brunt of the anger they carry in thier heart for others, which has nothing to do with U!…seems to be a fact of life these days, after hanging out long enuff with someone ya do see the character defects they have in the personal nature they carry in thier soul an heart! an the true colors show up eventually, the selfishness ME_ITIS type of attitude….All for a buck or 2 more ussually in the end is the way it usually werks out with these kinna folks, those who are never wrong but always right, an always above ya an talk down to ya all the time, but they can’t see thier own heart an soul because they are to busy demeaning others for one thing or another. Truly sucks when arrogance an false PRIDE! an always having to be the RIGHT ONE rules! These kinna folks expect friends to work for FREE! …friends are supposed to do it for nothing i have heard in the past from more than one soul with this kinna character defect! To be truly appreciated by people like this is truly hard. Even when ya have werked more than ur fair share for the products or cash given for the services. All it takes is one time; one TIME of u calling them on thier own crap…an ya will be thrown out of their reality, an be the one in the wrong! kinna insidious really to me, That not many people take the time to LOOK AT THEMSELVES! They would rather be boisterous an demanding, so the EGO { Edging god out} wins for the day!? 😦 sad deal really.users an abusers ..i watch this time an time again, people whom always complain an hardly ever thank. an are rarely thankful!..THEY KNOW NOT THE VALUE OF gratitude!….but sure know how to throw stones when things do not go thier way! Can dish it out but can’t take a werd back in retaliation at thier rudenesssssssssss!

So? do u live with or hang out with someone that is always NEGATIVE, an has a negative viewpoint bout most things in life?…where most of the conversations are always bout how others are so fucked up er whatevr…..always defending thier way or beliefs bout themselves in one way or another, an never taking responsibility to jest BE an have a normal OUTLOOK on things…..some are always complainers, an nothing will ever be right for them no matter what ya do ya will never truly satisfy them, they will surely cut ya off once they feel indebted to you….or things do not werk out the way they wanted them to..tHEY WILL GET AT YA WHEN THEY THINK THEY OWE U ZIP FOR ALL U DONE ?:( DON’T WANNA GET INDEBTED TO YA THEY DON’T THATS FER SURE…..
These kinna men an women always need to PROVE THEY ARE SUPERIOR to ya in one way or another,,,,fact of life! In the end ussually – an all things must end, good an bad…….but with these kind of people in the end? the only true friends they end up having are the ones that will put up with listening to them whine an be negative about everything under the sun……..
Today was one of those kind of days fer me here! frum the time i got moving in life…i was slighted for BEING ME…in so many ways…could not say much of anything during the day without the negative comments being part of thier reality. Being bitched at an ridiculed for evrey thing one does???is not a fun way to go about ur days..within the furst hour of so of hanging out with this person in QUESTION! not a reflection of me?:( i was CORRECTED probably 3 er 4 times. for evry move i made or many things i said? The only real conversations had were me responding to ridicule an complaints the best way i could?
Putting words in my mouth an saying i thought something i never thought of or said something i never really said, well that truly pisses me offffffffff…..there comes a time when ur hot an bothered an tired of listening to someone telling ya everything ya are doing is wrong an they know a better way…..ya blatently tell this person ya see why they have the problems they do an did in thier life in the past! an even present…then of course THEY WILL BLOW UP ON YA AN PUT WERDS IN UR MOUTH an tell ya ya said things ya never even thought of!!!

.presumptuousness is the root of all evil{against live} here……….

So they ASSUME THINGS enuff to tell ya ya CALL THEM A LIAR OR NAME THEY ABHOR!…when ya nevr said such a thing….Defensiveness an RIGHTNESS is more important to them at this point than friendship…they even ridicule that! so THEy can BE RIGHT!!!!!!!!!an ESCALATING IT INTO AN ARGUMENT OR A U SAID THIS OR THAT SCREAMING MATCH IS THIER NATURE!!!!!!!SIGNS OF THE PAST COMING BACK TO HAUNT THEM an FEAR is the true reality here! an doing the same things over an over as years before,an expecting different results.
RUDENESS AN SHUTTING ONE OFF AN NOT ALLOWING THE OTHER TO SPEAK AN BEING SHORT SIGHTED IS THE TRUE NATURE HERE!
THIS WAY THE EGO WINSSSSSSSSSSS! in thier heart an brain…….

i CALL IT false pride………..AN WHEN FALSE PRIDE WINS THE PERSON WITH IT looses!!!!!!!

EVEN THOUGH THEY WISH TO HURT ON THE OTHER PERSON AN MAKE THEM FEEL LIKE THEY ARE AT FAULT…..FOLKS LIKE THIS TURN INSENSITIVE TO ANY ONE ELSES FEELINGS BUT OTHER THAN WHAT THEY THOUGHT? WAS BRUISED OR INSULTED IN THIER WERLD, CUZ WELL, THEY ARE NOT USED TO ANYONE STANDING THIER OWN GROUND AN BEING A MAN OR A WOMAN AN STANDING UP FOR THEIR OWN RIGHTS!
HOW COULD YA???????? THEY SAY???????????????LOL………….
wELL, SELFISH INDIGNIFIED childlike behavior is uncool in thier eyes as long as they are lewking at others, but when they act thata way well, it becomes another story.is where the FALSE PRIDE STEPS IN an the EGO is always right an the other wrong..they stand thier ground of insecure indifference they apply to the world daily an do not even see it………IS WHERE I COME TO THE TERM!!!!!! lewk at ueself!!!!!!!

LOOK AT URSELF!!!!!!!!!

These kind of folks are the kind that will sacrifice a friendship……..IN ORDER for thier EGO TO BE RIGHT! is bout the bottom line of it all………an until they WAKE UP AN SEE THAT THE RESULTS OF THE DEMEANING NEGATIVITY THEY EXUBERATE;
CAN”T BE FIXED BY ANOTHER OR EVEN LOVE FOR THAT MATTER OF A FACT!!!!
LOVE WELL……….HAS BECOME A FORIEGN WERD TO THESE KIND OF INDIVIDUALS, an if it was staring them down like a tiger they would miss out on it!……..
For my life i know what its like to have personal integrity enuff not to bitch at another, even when ya know they might owe ya more than they BELIEVE!? WHERE AN WHEN EVERTHING BECOMES A PROBLEM! an u no longer serve them to thier own desires.AN UR in THIER WAY!?…….if ur not flattering the ego of them an agreeing with all thier matter of correctness all the time, well,at that point in time ya will looseeeeeeeeeeeee………BOUT ALL THERE IS TO IT!!!!! so watch it when dealing with “FRIENDS” that are only out to satisfy thier own personal needs an DESIRES!? 😦 sad deal when other can’t
LOOK AT THEMSELVES!!!!!!! BUT THEY ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING NGATIVE TO SAY BOUT OTHERS AN LIFE 😦
AN FALSE PRIDE AN EGO GETS IN THE WAY OF SOMEONE GOING OUT OF THIER WAY TO HELP THEM WITH EVERY NEED AN DESIRE THEY HAVE????? 😦

PS: Not the furst time i have repeated this mistake at all, i am too trusting, i believe in the end they will see THE TRUTH…but is a pipe dream really…..for until they look at themselves AN HAVE SOME REMORSE AN grattitude THIS WILL NOT CHANGE EVER! cAN’T FIX OR CHANGE SOMEONE ELSES BAD ATTITUDE OR VIEWPOINTS IF THEY DON’T WANT TO FIX THEMSELVES….

LAST YEAR I PUT MY WHOLE TRUST AN MY LIFES ENERGY INTO A friends life……I LOST OUT!……. He made a business deal with me 50-50……. well we all know how that turned out now….50% of 50% is still 25% of the whole!!!!!!!!! an he still has not returned PERSONAL stuff that he has that is mine!!!!!! on top of that …..taking advantage of another an IN UR FACE FUCK YOU IS THE WAY FOR PEOPLE LIKE THIS!!!!!
AN this summer i put my whole life an energy into helping another that don’t appreciate the same way…ALTHOUGH THIS PERSON DIDN’T IN MY FACE TAKE FRUM ME…..THIS PERSON ASSAULTED SOMETHING JEST AS IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE TO ME THAN ALL THE MONEY IN THE WERLD AN MATERIAL ASSETS INCLUDED…..MY PERSONAL INTEGRITY!
JEST ANOTHER LAYER AN LEVEL OF WINNING!!!! FOR THIER EGO!!!!!!!!!!!!…
MUST BE A HELL OF A WAY TO LIVE? ALWAYS BEING RIGHT AN ALWAYS HAVING THINGS THIER WAY!……………ALWAYS BEING BETTER THAN THE GUY NEXT DOOR!!!!! ALWAYS BEING PURFECT!!!!.NEVER BEING WRONG…AN ALWAYS ACTING LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IS THE “PROBLEM”…..
SOUND LIKE A RANT.YES INDEED IT IS……. cuz i am so tired of incriminating selfish self centered holier than thou attitudes coming frum those with serious character defects an life problems they themselves can’t even see an don’t think they have…….

the world daily an do not even see it………IS WHERE I COME TO THE TERM!!!!EVEN THOUGH THEY WISH TO HURT ON THE OTHER PERSON AN MAKE THEM FEEL LIKE THEY ARE AT FAULT…..FOLKS LIKE THIS TURN INSENSITIVE TO ANY ONE ELSES FEELINGS BUT OTHER THAN WHAT THEY THOUGHT? WAS BRUISED OR INSULTED IN THIER WERLD, CUZ WELL, THEY ARE NOT USED TO ANYONE STANDING THIER OWN GROUND AN BEING A MAN OR A WOMAN AN STANDING UP FOR THEIR OWN RIGHTS!
HOW COULD YA???????? THEY SAY???????????????LOL………….
wELL, SELFISH UNDIGNIFIED childlike behavior is uncool in thier eyes as long as they are lewking at others, but when they act thata way well, it becomes another story.is where the FALSE PRIDE STEPS IN an the EGO is always right an the other wrong..they stand their ground of insecure indifference they apply to !! lewk at ueself!!!!!!!

LOOK AT URSELF!!!!!!!!!

These kind of folks are the kind that will sacrifice a friendship……..IN ORDER for thier EGO TO BE RIGHT! is bout the bottom line of it all………an until they WAKE UP AN SEE THAT THE RESULTS OF THE DEMEANING NEGATIVITY THEY EXUBERATE;
CAN”T BE FIXED BY ANOTHER OR EVEN LOVE FOR THAT MATTER OF A FACT!!!!
LOVE WELL……….HAS BECOME A FOREIGN WERD TO THESE KIND OF INDIVIDUALS, an if it was staring them down like a tiger they would miss out on it!……..
For my life i know what its like to have personal integrity enuff not to bitch at another, even when ya know they might owe ya more than they BELIEVE!? WHERE AN WHEN EVERTHING BECOMES A PROBLEM! an u no longer serve them to thier own desires.AN UR in THIER WAY!?…….if ur not flattering the ego of them an agreeing with all thier matter of correctness all the time, well,at that point in time ya will looseeeeeeeeeeeee………BOUT ALL THERE IS TO IT!!!!! so watch it when dealing with “FRIENDS” that are only out to satisfy thier own personal needs an DESIRES!? 😦 sad deal when other can’t
LOOK AT THEMSELVES!!!!!!! BUT THEY ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING NGATIVE TO SAY BOUT OTHERS AN LIFE 😦
AN FALSE PRIDE AN EGO GETS IN THE WAY OF SOMEONE GOING OUT OF THIER WAY TO HELP THEM WITH EVERY NEED AN DESIRE THEY HAVE????? 😦

PS: Not the furst time i have repeated this mistake at all, i am too trusting, i believe in the end they will see THE TRUTH…but is a pipe dream really…..for until they look at themselves AN HAVE SOME REMORSE AN grattitude THIS WILL NOT CHANGE EVER! cAN’T FIX OR CHANGE SOMEONE ELSES BAD ATTITUDE OR VIEWPOINTS IF THEY DON’T WANT TO FIX THEMSELVES….

LAST YEAR I PUT MY WHOLE TRUST AN MY LIFES ENERGY INTO A friends life……I LOST OUT!……. He made a business deal with me 50-50……. well we all know how that turned out now….50% of 50% is still 25% of the whole!!!!!!!!! an he still has not returned PERSONAL stuff that he has that is mine!!!!!! on top of that …..taking advantage of another an IN UR FACE FUCK YOU IS THE WAY FOR PEOPLE LIKE THIS!!!!!
AN this summer i put my whole life an energy into helping another that don’t appreciate the same way…ALTHOUGH THIS PERSON DIDN’T IN MY FACE TAKE FRUM ME…..THIS PERSON ASSAULTED SOMETHING JEST AS IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE TO ME THAN ALL THE MONEY IN THE WERLD AN MATERIAL ASSETS INCLUDED…..MY PERSONAL INTEGRITY!
JEST ANOTHER LAYER AN LEVEL OF WINNING!!!! FOR THIER EGO!!!!!!!!!!!!…
MUST BE A HELL OF A WAY TO LIVE? ALWAYS BEING RIGHT AN ALWAYS HAVING THINGS THIER WAY!……………ALWAYS BEING BETTER THAN THE GUY NEXT DOOR!!!!! ALWAYS BEING PURFECT!!!!.NEVER BEING WRONG…AN ALWAYS ACTING LIKE EVRYONE ELSE IS THE “PROBLEM”…..
SOUND LIKE A RANT.YES INDEED IT IS……. cuz i am so tired of incriminating selfish self centered holier than thou attitudes coming frum those with serious character defects an life problems they themselves can’t even see an don’t think they have…….