Stayin’ Grounded when Lightnin’ Strikes in da’ Mind

****YES LIGHTNIN’ HAS STRUCK! ha….*** So Docs orders are a Fistula! .THEN A KIDNEY TRANSPLANT!
………………whats a Fistula ya say…????????

http://www.fistulafirst.org
Well, it is one of 3 ways to access the body for dialysis….
fistulafirst.org will give ya the info if ya nevr heard of it…
My Kreatine level has reached a deadly point…to the point i have been
toxic to the levels that are not allowable for the normal human body…
My current stage is 8.5 and one year ago it was 4.0 so has doubled in the last year..also my kidneys have stopped filtering..so filtration rate is nill….so as a result i have collapsed twice in the past few weeks now…when that happens they check my rates an my Blood pressure is 230 over 140 an pulse is rapid over 130+….I usually end up vomiting an feeling like i am going to die before it gets werse….these bouts have been happening for years…but as of lately they happen daily now totally sucks….
What sucks is being stranded*** lol with no help fronm the outside….*** seems to be all bout a buck or 2 more to evryone in my werld these days……..DOC SAYS I AM TERMINAL IF I DO NOT GET DIALYSIS……an well.the dialysis can’t start till they do the fistula an it heals…So betweens now an that time is my critical stage in my life the way they put it…biding my time till the 24th when i go in for vein mapping an to set up to get the fistula installed in my arm…is where they join an artery an blood vessel to make a bigger one and an interface to be able to get the needle in to acess blood system to do dialysis………..CATCH 22″ it has to heal for bout 2 months before they can use it….So almost liquid type of diet here for this guy whom can’t filter anything rough no more….Is truly a one day at a time adventure for me here in my werld yes indeed!……
So since my wordpress editor won’t open i thought i’d share this one frum this last year bout stayin grounded…since well, that appears to be a big mission for me presently….All my life doin for others lol.an to get to this point where i need a helping hand…an it’s a boy who cried wolf kinna response i get frum those whom i seek help? i sincerely do not understand…the dog eat dog …mentality of those whom are all bout fear an materialism…duh whats that going to get them in the end i wunder? oh well,,,,,,,,,,The older we all get we know the end is near…the question is though? what can i do to help that inevitable end to last longer..even though i am in pain frum this disease…
Well Best news i have for my own personal world is i have a hell of a good relationship with a Lovely LAdy Friend whom….has helped me along the way Spiritually over the past year……an i feel indebted to her …but WELL…she has offered to give me one of her kidneys if we are a match should i be able to get to the point of the

TRANSPLANT WHICH IS IN ORDER # 2 ORDER FRUM THE DOC! A KIDNEY TRANSPLANT IN 2017 …or i stay on dialysis the rest of my life ….3 times a week 40 miles away? well, we shall see now an time will tell what hap[pens huh..
MEANWHILE…..I will jest try to Keep a grip Practice what i preach! an do the best i can to get through til IT HAPPENS WHATEVR IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!! HOPEFULLY I CAN GET ANOTHER 20 YEARS OUT OF THIS BODY WITH A TRANSPLANT………ACORDING TO THE DOC .WOW….WHAT A LOTTA REALIZATIONS FOR THE DAY TO COMPREHENDE’ HERE!.PEACE OUT TO ONE AN ALL FRUM DA’ q…..

Quarksire

The art of awakening…or waking up should i say!?

Stayin Grounded is important when lightnin storms inside da’ mind!

AN STAYIN’ GROUNDED when Lightnin strikes! in da’ mind!… well,
when overwhelmed, sumtimes life being difficult, so it becomes life in the now.

With every new strike!…
to integrate the past into the future truly steals frum the now,,
challenges are inseparable frum being here in dis werld,,,
but do we have to exist in our past any more?
does living in the past help today?
well, the BAD” past i have not forgiven an released…comes back whenever i focus on da’ past! so cure 2 dat is every time a negative or “BAD” memory comes up i must forgive an forget it so it don’t get in my way of today an the future! an make irrational decisions…etc etc..every time i dive..so i don’t dive a lot anymore…Not seeking the…

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