Da’ Disabled Warrior

Yeas, well at timez i feel like a disabled worn out warrior…..an truly tired of fighting battles, with alcoholics and incompassionate people whom are all talk an jest hipocrytes to the holy spirit… so i wrote this one this eve….all the same….. jest another opinion of the Q take it er leave it…..

Fake it till ya make it


er ya don’t i guess…

lIVING ON dISABILITY!……WELL, SOUNDS EASY RIGHT, NOT,, when ya have a mortgage to pay and electric bill an internet etc etc etc , is not an easy thing to do, especially when ya are down an out by the disability itself….I work still, work a lot an hard really, but do it for myself, at my own house and for me, the werk i am talking bout is simple werk like doing the dishes er werking on me house,,,,jest attempting to get by another hour sometimes without the pain of someone knitting inside my back is a giant chore and fatiquing in itself.. 😦 PKD surely sucks if i must say 😦 is very pain full and causes one to be very depressed also a lot because of the limitations upon oneself an not being able to do simple things like even tying my shoelaces with out it being pain full…. so such as life with polysyctic kidney disease and the chronic fatigue syndrum that goes along with it, the body is busy deaLING WITH THE DISEASE and is overwhelmed to the point that it is fatiguing to keep a grip on daily things a lot….At least i can say i am alcohol free and have been since 1997 or i prolly would be dead this very day!
  A heriditary diseasei do so hope they find a cure to before my kids and grandkids are diagnosed with it….i didnt’t even know i had this disease but always knew i had a chronic back ache didn’t know why till the scans when i crashed a snowmobile in 1997 ever since it has been getting progressively werse and my kidneys are like the size of a football now….each…yes each..an now the poly cysts have migrated also to the pancreas and the liver also, so time is well, either on my side or it is not, for me to accomplish a few goals i have for the rest of my life i do so have that i appreciate every day i do!..an 4 outa 5 days i arize very ill from this disease and do all i can to stay outa taking myself to the hospital every time it happens….
Being disabled means jest what it says,,,u are disabled to be able to function in a normal lifestyle and type of life without pain medication… 😦 sometimes it is hard enuff to jest get through the next hour to get on with whatevr it is i am attemptimg to accomplish. Not on no pity pot it jest is what it is!
I now have limitations i did not have before and evry day it seems as though the limitations are growing as fast as my kidneys are 😦 sorry to say :(… it is not reversing itself even though i have stabalized it with the healing energies and frequencies of the rife machine…..I have extended my days sure i have, but as a result there is pain to go along with it, but to me well is a lot better than dying….I have a grand desire to meet my estranged family and long lost son…etc etc.whom i haven’t been able to see since he was 6 due to circumstances beyond my control 😦 ..like my father before me i would rather not die without meeeting up and making ammends with that side of my family!
So today yes once again i have to “fake it till i make it” as they say to get through jest one more day…I have to put on that smile and wear that crown of thorns, no matter what, an try not to frown when i feel so damn down 😦 DIS ABILTY YES IT IS FER DA Q!….


1 in 20,000 people

……..SpecialItis… well, not I… but then! …LoL ….Every person on the planet is 1 in 20,000 of  Something! ya know well, this jest happens to be mine, i am re-bloggin this cuz well my catagory a cure for most diseases seems to be a popular subjekt , If u have already read this post-it frum da Q u can pass it on by, if not well, is valuable life changing information for the seeker whom wishes to seek a “CURE” for the particular disease they got , if not some relief, thanks for reading the Q Namaste’


This POST-IT whats it mean, well a bit of Share my life


frum the Q was jest another sunup this am..an…I know i am far an few between in lotsa ways lol, but healthwise well, i am 1 in 20,ooo. i suffer frum, adpkd an i say yes suffer, cuz well is like sufferin sufferjets somedayZ!Dealing with chronic pain sucks, but is what it is!i never understood it, nor invisible illnesses till i experienced it! Now i realize what is is like cuz well, Jest getting round then other days i can do jest fine, I suffer frum Autosomal recessive polycystic kidney disease .it is a genetic disorder and has nothing to do with my lifes choices how i got it, but how i deal now though has a lot to do with the outcome,,anyhow the way i feel as of late is i believe..anyhow, i think…

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1 in 20,000 people

This POST-IT whats it mean, well a bit of Share my life


frum the Q was jest another sunup this am..an…I know i am far an few between in lotsa ways lol, but healthwise well, i am 1 in 20,ooo. i suffer frum, adpkd an i say yes suffer, cuz well is like sufferin sufferjets somedayZ!Dealing with chronic pain sucks, but is what it is!i never understood it, nor invisible illnesses till i experienced it! Now i realize what is is like cuz well, Jest getting round then other days i can do jest fine, I suffer frum Autosomal recessive polycystic kidney disease .it is a genetic disorder and has nothing to do with my lifes choices how i got it, but how i deal now though has a lot to do with the outcome,,anyhow the way i feel as of late is i believe..anyhow, i think it has a lot to do with the magnetics of the earth also {ITS HOW WATER POLYCYSTIC WERKS}i watch all the time and when it changes the TENSIon and the forces within change also,pain is NOT all in my mind once it becomes in the body IN FORM like this,,,we have to do the best we can for pain management,,i do my herb a lot for that reason an helps a lot! follow the links within here for more info…,truth is ur body eventually does help to deal with it internally..the body even produces a pain killer internally to help like morphine is why my back is all numb right now,,,,so what do i do besides smoke my bud an take my pain killers for my dis-ease…well..read up check this out if ya wish to , is what ur common every day doctor is NOT TAUGHT IN MEDICAL SKEWL for a number of reasons, and many reason why this was illegal in our COMMUNISTIC LIKE USA,!..they don’t want ya top know there is a cure for most every disease on the planet and that all things biological are made up of frequencies, and if the frequencies get off kilter well, we get diseased, well, dr. royal rife many years ago found that if ya zapped the specific diseased portions or cells with the correct frequencies well, the bad stuff goes away and the good stuff regenerates!.suppression of the cures for disease in usa started here<click on link if ya want to know why in europe they use this device evrywhere but not in the usa!.if u got any disease at all i recommend highly for u to flow any one of these links {IN WHITE!} throughout this article here i wrote here concerning it titled


and see if it might help of be of assistance to u, it is essentially what the HEALER or SHAMUN does to another is zap them with the correct field or frequency or color or sound to do the trick, it re introduces the body to specific sound waves it SHOULD BE OPERATING ON ,,,not what IT IS,, because of one reason or another!..Dr. Royal Raymond Rife Created the Original ‘Royal Rife Machine’, A frequency generating device which was used to cure terminally ill cancer patients through selective electronic frequency treatment ..I personally have extended my stay on this planet earth as a result of the use of this device, it has cured me of some of my other issues i had also some as a rssult of opkd, all but gone now because of the use of the rife machine…i also have my vision almost back to norm ..with exception of tiny letters and thingz…thanks to this..so check it out,,i will not drag this out anymore, cuz if ur at the lest bit interested in curing ur disease whatevr it might be,,the rife machine can CURE thousands..:” BELIEVE IT ER NOT!”Have a great rest of the week everyone Q…an if ur like me in pain well, one day at a time one minute at a time it might not get better but the EXPERIENCE DOES CHANGE…one way er the other ..ok over an out frum Q on this HEALING! NOTE!.ooohhhh an

pss: THANKS MOM!…for helping me to get the rife…even though it was dad who gave me the disease…lol..all i can say right now is i know we got to stay ON THE RIGHT FREQUENCY!..


..“Dr Royal Rife’s investigated the cause of many diseases including cancer.  Dr Rife used the most advanced microscope in the world to identify the existence of a Virus that he believed was the sole contributor to all cancers.  This microscope was the most powerful of its time, and was invented and constructed by Dr Rife himself; for the sole purpose of locating the Virus that contributed to Cancer.. The birth of the Rife Machine was to be the solution to elimination of this Virus, and Rife performed successful Rife Machine treatments with many patients over the years.  This was verified by the U.S.C. Medical School Special Medical Research Committee.” † USC-0292E41-Page1203(b)

Expression vs. Frustration

When the spirit is frustrated and cannot expand, this is made known through the feeling system of the individual— as has always been the case.


So, Barely know by beery few People are my perceptions about hangin’ in a Beary Gewd way! Jest Barely at least!

Hope everyone has a gewd day an great weekend 🙂 Today i am going to use this opportunity on a relaxing by the fireplace kinna Saturday, a no pressure No Problem Kinna day!


Keeping Fear{false evidence appearing realz}

Away..Away yes Away with da’ fear frum me myself I and what othersz have to say is,

Enjoy this little photo log with a few pics of my playing arena here



Prayer, especially the redundant type, is little more than a one-way conversation which results in the speaker gaining little when he/she elects not to listen, as well. If the majority of our Western religious institutions emphasized the act of meditation as strongly as that of prayer, their members might experience accelerated spiritual growth on a yet unimagined an uparralleled scale.


Those who master us through fear, master us for life.


Such limiting beliefs and judgments have interfered tremendously with the natural communicative pathways between embodied entities and All That Is. They have greatly reduced the creative ability to transmute Universal Energy at will, all but eliminated the original fluidity of reality, and entrapped humans within the very tools which were intended to empower them. The result is that humankind has become mired within an illusory “reality” of their own creation, cut off from the overarching reality, guidance and direction of All That Is


It would seem that these “feelings” serve as the energy form that converts our “beliefs” into our created reality. The stronger our particular beliefs, the more expanded our creative results. Some would call this “simple faith”, but it is more complicated than that. We can successfully connect the two if we are willing to make an honest evaluation of our inherited beliefs. Also, we can drift far off course, but we can not sever the tethering line which keeps us connected to Thee Spirit. Thus, with intent, we can reestablish a course correction at any point in our existence.

These beliefs, and any others which limit human development and expression, are no longer to be tolerated. The state of the earth becomes less and less stable as more and more energy is fed into the existing limited beliefs. Now is the time for the piece-by-piece dismantling of the dense energy network that stifles the spiritual, mental and physical evolution of the human species.

The opposite of expression is frustration. Spiritual frustration is the antithesis of the Creator’s intended purpose. It also signals its own presence through the feeling system. Frustration is acknowledged by unpleasant emotions. The spiritual insurance against continuous frustration comes in the form of self-preservationary reactions to unpleasant feelings which are hard-wired into the body. Such reactions virtually override the mind where the human limitations reside. The emotions contain creative arousal energy which moves the individual to corrective action. Such a force is the natural spiritual aggression, yet missing the intentional focus. Such corrections preserve the species, but since they lack intention, they do not facilitate human purpose. At best, they buy time.

While “buying time” does not necessarily mean we own it forever, it does enable us to expand our consciousness and continue to open our “spiritual” eyes until we can eventually recognize the pattern and purpose of life’s meaning. distortions we can learn to live without.


For spirit not only has consciousness with which to know itself, it also has intention through which it can experience, feel, manifest and direct itself. This intention has become disassociated from spirit in the realm of human understanding to the degree that it now needs its own name. It has been termed Divine Will. It is through this disconnection that so many no longer experience the guidance of “Godly” intention. It is through this disconnection that self preservation has become the motivational norm. It is through this disconnection that events seem to come out of nowhere, rather than to be creatively designed and attracted by the individual through willful choice.

In a manner of speaking, spirit relates to light and will relates to darkness. Consciousness is the fastest vibratory aspect of spirit, and will is the slower more physical magnetic vibration which exists as a porthole of sorts into physical existence. Consciousness is the point of power and will is the focus of that power. The will vibrates the darkness to receive the light of spirit in the physical form. It is through this process that imagined thought forms become physical objects and probable events become actual physical events. Together, consciousness and will create the desired intended reality.


Imagine a “porthole” below the waterline on an ocean liner. We can open that porthole and the ocean will flow into our environment. We need only to trust in our ability to control that “flow” in such a way that it can serve to give us say, a comfortable shower. While this might be most difficult to imagine, just think of all the technical miracles the human race has already brought into its reality and how many more are in the process stage right now. We have harnessed vast rivers to bring light into our nights, for example. Now, a greater enlightenment awaits us.

Probably the most distorted and misused phrase in today’s lexicon is the utterance that it is “God’s Will”. Dragged to the fore at every unpleasant experience in life, it is used to placate those who have adopted and accepted the victimization mentality so nourished by the full spectrum of our religious, political, economic and social institutions. Nothing could stretch us further away from the obvious truth. Not only does it stamp out the spiritualization of humanity, it reduces humans to some type of warped cogs of an erratic wheel of destiny.

It is time to reclaim this aspect of spirit for a more complete understanding of and participation within the human condition. Although the term “Will” is utilized, it should be clear that it is still part and parcel of every human spirit.

It is time to reclaim this aspect of spirit for a more complete understanding of and participation within the human condition. Although the term “Will” is utilized, it should be clear that it is still part and parcel of every human spirit.

So many of the terms we use in daily life are tossed about with little appreciation of their meaning and influence, but we can correct that. It requires little more than quiet reflection and a willingness to connect our words with those beliefs which bring about the consequences in our livez 🙂


The purpose of human existence is for a given spirit to develop and express its potential in physical form. This is also the intention of Divine Spirit as carried out by Divine Will within each individual. Both are manifested in body, with the spirit experienced as consciousness and the will, experienced as “feeling”. Will power is raw emotional energy. Both aspects of spirit are to remain in balance with each other as two halves of a whole.


Consciousness and Will: Complimentary qualities in the process of human life. We can only hope that this new millenium will bring a true understanding of their value and utilization. When this comes about, we will be more than we have been and more than we have ever hoped to become.

While we are told that we have the gift of Free Will, we are also led to believe that we can only exercise this gift in a limited fashion and that we are tethered to a controlling Being who is perpetually testing, rewarding and punishing us in some arbitrary fashion. We are led to believe that this is a “state” we can only hope to pray ourselves out of. Meanwhile, as the bumper sticker states: Shit happens.

Upon examining the will as a separate entity to learn its function, it is now necessary to conceptually place it back within spirit where it belongs. Will is not separate from spirit. It shall now be recognized as its feeling aspect. Feelings shall now be respected for the spiritual intention that they communicate. Feelings shall now be respected for the powerful creative will energy that they contain. Feelings both communicate intentions from spirit and magnetically bring them into physical reality.


“Feelings” have a dual and equally valuable purpose. They serve both as a guiding force and as a magnetic force. We have the capacity to bring into our physical reality that which is in our best and higher interest. However, as a result of the gift of free will, this “capacity” can also bring that which is not in our best interest. With understanding and practice, we can acquire the former and avoid the latter.

Thoughts empowered with emotional energy will be more likely to become reality. Whether the thoughts are surrounded with joyous expectation, or dread, worry and fear, they will create events connected to the imagined mental scenario. The mind does not know if an event has been good or bad, but the spirit does. Spiritual intention has been accomplished in physical reality when the feeling pleasure is experienced. If there has been interference from the realm of mind and spiritual intention has not been accomplished, a painful event will result.

Indeed, every unit of matter is imbued with conscious spiritual intention following the pleasure/pain, attraction and repulsion principle—including subatomic quanta .

Because the mind reflects the creative aspect of the human being and because it is exposed to so much information which is individualized by time and space, it is nearly unlimited when it comes to unique memories and creative opportunities.

But it does not come that way. Just as a new body arrives with each birth, a new mind is born for a fresh beginning. Each human being arrives on Earth with a blank slate to be impressed upon by human experience. A blank slate upon which each individual can create their own desired reality. Humans have complete freedom of will to determine what the contents of mind are to be. With this feature, the mind is not so much like a window to the world, or even a mirror of the world, it ismore like a canvas upon which the world can manifest. Like an artist paints a picture, each entity can create a mental landscape like a portrait through which he or she can experience life. The mind holds pictures of the existing world, and adds creative improvements as well. Thus, humans have the fantastic mental agility to create as many unique realities as there are unique human beings. This individualized mind is intended to support and orient the embodied human upon his or her particular destiny path.

The idea that we can build/create our own experiences in this reality and thereby gain knowledge and wisdom is alien to our current societal outlook. Fear and a victim mentality drive our system. The adverse consequences of this state of mind are everywhere. There is an old Chinese proverb: “When one is foolish enough long enough, he/she eventually becomes wise.” There are many reaching that point daily. As it was used in the above paragraph, art is the metaphor for our spiritual evolution. We need only to learn to appreciate it.

If we feel pain and see examples of pain around us, we should note that such is a service, a motivation to act. There would seem to be no shortage of such “opportunities”. It should also serve to show us that we are much more than the total sum of our thoughts . We are also our feelings.

For the spirit is embodied in flesh, and despite the interference of mind, it speaks that language of spirit—it speaks the language of feeling. The rational powers of the mental realm can be overridden by impulses of the physical realm.



may the rains come ur way soon an wash away all the fears u have bout silly thingz in ur life.!


Fear has its role in our existence, but it is only to stimulate the sensible action of fleeing a life-threatening situation and to, thus, maintain our physical existence and comfort. Once this has been accomplished, “fear” can be compartmentalized and we can go on enjoying that life we so naturally just preserved. Keeping it at the forefront of our thinking will only end up obstructing our growth and development, which is only a more subtle form of death
Conquering the spiritual challenges fully opens the chakra centers and allows full conscious experience and fosters excellent mental and physical health. It is through the successes of their creative adaptations that all human culture arises, and mass consciousness takes a place in the creative formation of the life experience. It is at this point when right and light responses can replace the cruder fight/flight, and approach/avoidance responses that served only self-preservation purposes.
Just as rivers can never permanently run uphill, so the human spirit can not avoid it’s destiny, that being an envelopment with All-That-Is. Each time we embrace a fresh thought, share in idea, create something new out of the multiplicity of our existence, we move toward a greater level of expansion, of which there is no limit.
Despite the repeated mistakes and cycles of ongoing pain within the Earthly experience, the patterns are readily available for conscious comprehension and punctuated enlightenment to occur at any time. The higher destiny awaits, beyond space-time, whole and intact, ready to unfold before the willing eyes, minds, and hearts of humanity
There comes a point of morphic resonance when the human race turns from its less evolved practices associated with such emotions as fear and anger and begins to relate to each other in ways that promise greater joy and fulfillment. Each of us contributes to the achievement of that “point” with our personal commitment to that END!.

Evolutionary Path Of Evolving Consciousness and Feeling Experience
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Fear => Anxiety => Growing Pain => Acceptance => Learning Anticipation => Confidence => Excitement ð Courage => Faith => Universal Oneness
Anger => Frustration => Annoyance => Tolerance => Acceptance => Patience => Curiosity => Mirth => Compassion => Universal Oneness
Sadness => Loneliness => Acceptance => Liberation => Attachment => Trust => Hope => Love => Universal Oneness
Disgust => Annoyance => Tolerance => Acceptance => Curiosity => Camaraderie => Attachment => Friendship => Compassion => Grace => Universal Oneness
Envy/Guilt => Anxiety => Frustration => Acceptance => Confidence => Compassion => Grace => Universal Oneness
Attachment =>Trust =>Hope =>Love =>Compassion =>Faith =>Universal Oneness
Worthiness => Confidence => Pride => Gratitude => Devotion => Universal Oneness


To BE CONTINUED! Till then Keep on smilin’