Know thyself – cuz Ya Never Know!

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  So whats the point he said she said??? there are 2 many points to this subjekT! lol.
although it is mostly bout what one loves…whatevr that is!…

Ten years ago i loved what i thought was an angel ? only to find out after months that the angel loved the devil more than life itself…what do i mean buy the devil..”D evil” well to me definition of EVIL is simply ..anything that is opposite to LIVE in thinking..an well the “devil;” lol..has to be …against lived.or da’ live…….

then 3 years laters the same kind of scenario trips up my life to no end….by another so-called angel, one i have a hard time forgiving for not being an honest human an taking me for Time, energy, money, direction and sending me into a downward spiral emotionally for years! 😦 Yeah that was love ……I am still today at this moment paying for that wunderful adventure….guess i was cheap entertainment 4 a year o the internet, an a few months sex for her…whatevr is all i can say now…cuz i have to accept that there are people who are against live….an all out for themselves in evry way? money wise though being the most important to these kinda lovers it is more important than all the fears that they behold in life$$$$…..so much for angels…..
So, point of this is one thing . “YA NEVER KNOW” bout anything or anybody really truly.i did not choose for them to be selfish or greedy or to rip me off for cash an time an life an emotions whatever 4?..or do ya bout them?..? or do we jest have to make better choices? wtf? i do not know what the answer is but my present relationship does not exhibit or even come close to or have any tendencies to be against live…an definitely is not against lived, because her lived is what makes her that person that she is today!…..

well one in many millions to me my lady is…nothing of the sort or kind against live…wtf for she says…why be against ur life? an if ya are well ur close to suicide…i guess…anyhow an against live Evil…why be that now when what we have lived brought us to be who we are today? why join up with the “devil” against lived an whom is Evil? …..what on earth for really? $$$$$ in the end with these greedy selfish people…they do not care what the causal effects of their taking frum u for their own personal benefit…very cold an self centered in my book of life ..unto death when we part! yep!…as they walk round talking bout how they notice all the self centered people etc etc? like wtf..Hippocratic to the max i see in so many people these days…hurting on others? finding humor in it an then saying they are innocent in all their false judgements an taking frum ya?…

BACK 2 the POINT! YA NEVER KNOW!….I simply want to live an love …simple right…..LIFE!

what is it ya never know…well, lotsa things in this life of pomp an circumstance, good choices vs. bad etc etc fate er destiny? which is it an why? YA WILL PROLLY never know where ya come frum really….other than jest one thing really …love an desire to live! that’s bout it!…other than that ya prolly will never know ? when fate ? destiny? luck bad er good? or pomp or circumstance by being in the wrong place at the wrong time??? Fact; some things an people in my life will be part of my infinity 4 one reason er another!

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WELL? YA NEVR KNOW …BOUT ANY OF THAT IT JEST IS WHAT IT IS AN WILL BE WHAT IT IS ALSO? MY point is a LOT OF IT IS SIMPLY ABOUT CHOICE; why should human being be so inconsiderate to others as to take a child of theirs away frum them an not ever let that child see them after 6 years of life? moving to another part of the state? an disappear…but on the back side of life stalk ya for $$$?.an reprogram the child with nonsense!….why would sumeone go nuts an kill my lady and her father an rape her an steal car an money an drive off 500 miles away to then kill a group of 4 in a campground ???wtf? then when they find this guy an pull him over he puts his cig out in the middle of his forehead? before they take him off to jail? nope he wasn’t drunk or on drugs either ..jest a crazy who should not have been let out on parole but was an ex-murder who should have never been let out? as far as i am concerned in the furst place ..system failure to me…an welp is bout it..the whole good system is collapsing upon itself cuza the bad? is a trip how society as a whole don’t want to get a grip an get along, truly sad really……so wtf is what i am saying to U today is ya NEVER KNOW when shit will or can happen in ur life…My experience though is that if ya fear the crazy people they will be attracted to ya…so HAVE NO FEAR! ..most important though is one has to KNOW THYSELF an be able to get a grip when crazy shit does happen in their life…….
Why would someone intoxicated to the max choose to take a drive with the 4 year old in the car to the races! lol. such alcoholic stupity auctually!..@ well @ i know by personal experience an everyones is different because of choices of habits..once again i choose today LOVE instead of fear!..(an alcoholism).(escapisms) an ism’s in general!
but really ! Ya NEVER KNOW ..either after the habits ya might choose in life what will become of it or because of the HABIT! everything bout ya changes 4 ever…cosmic cosmology in a sense to me is where one recognizes that happening in their life! that is to be lived! once ya turn round ur perception and analysis an stop being a selfish human as the doers that hurt ya well, ya see the HABITS one chooses are of most important to their very own existence an life itself! in all and every ways everything is bout HABIT! an choosing the correct ones…ya only got so much room in ur brain an so much time in ur life so depending upon the HABITS u choose is what will become the outcome in this standpoint alone…..

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So on that note well, i have in my lifetime learned to choose certain habits that were good for me rather than badhabits that were good for me rather than bad! habits like my addiction to flying, driving, Riding an experiencing FUN things….an doing my photography,..to old to scare the shit out of myself an rock climb though lol…been there done that badge..an i got hurt more than once doing it…so having an addictive personality an having healthy habits is a good thing! in Q’s book of life….over the years i have traded my BAD habits for so called better or gooder habits lol…as a child would say!…an for that fact i am grateful ..i have chosen to not disengage frum my personal reality anymore..which i did every day 4 about 26 years as a functioning alcoholic an businessman in the worlds workforce…if i would have continued that HABIT of drinking i would have killed my self or another doing it …having to come to terms with that an quit was hard..very hard…but well, i am alive today because i do not drink..an as a result i can still fly my ultralight or drive my car or ryde my motorcycle to my hearts delight @ long @ i don’t get sick over my latest adventure with dis-ease an the bodys malfunction.my (PKD)..so is a dna flip and a genetic flaw they say that causes mine…as with many debilitating diseases, they are all jest a genetic flip…with different causes of symptom in different places based upon the flip…for 10 years now i have had my kidneys failing in a bad way an knew it ..they the kidneys in my abdomen are bout 4 times the size of the normal persons kidneys..maybe 5…covered with polycysts they are…an the cycts are spread all over in my abdomen also???oh did i say it hurts? …well has come to the point of dialysis…in my werld…an thats a whole nother post it…
THE point of this post it was to give preponderance to the fact that well….YA NEVER KNOW! ….bout anything really or anybody! as la live learn an grow ya know better..but that does not save ya frum the THEN…an point of that is ya forgive the THEN so ya can live in the now! even if someone ya knew 5 10 er 20 years ago is still negatively affecting ur mind with negative energy 😦

IT’S ALL IN UR MIND YES INDEED!!!!
SO KEEP THE GOOD, IS ALL I CAN SAY….when in recovery..because…

YA NEVR KNOW!…….

all i can say is one should always keep hope in their higher power within themselves to pull them thru if they really want to get thru it..it is really tough ? indeed it is a lot to accept that some people are simply selfishly programmed an so addicted to their programming that they will never change…bred by fear live by fear so to say….therefore that is not love an my objektive as of late is one thing LOVE….an well till i die i am going to live my very own version of the great american dream…an hopefully fly an ryde an well, live an have fun with my love, an simply experience a few good fun things in life instead of focusing on the bad an the past …

CUZ YA KNOW WHAT FOLKS “IT JEST IS WHAT IT IS “! WHAT EVER IT IS NOW…..GOT TO ACCEPT THAT AN MOVE ON FRUM THERE.

OVER AN OUT FRUM THE Q

New Moon Blessings of the Fifth Stage of Endurance: The Harrowing of the Soul

……..D & D Day fer me 🙂 no not Dungeons an Dwagonz but because of Dawn an Derek & Brandi! I start a new day, moving forward without hesitation!

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With a bit of Endurance!

“It is because of the burst of new life that our life may seem again to stumble too near the edge, and jump right into the abyss again. But this time, the love of the inner masculine and the old Wild Self will sustain us as never before.”

ThanQ Derek H an Dawn & Brandi

for being whom ya all be 🙂

Da’ following is a long post-it so, get a cupa jave an sit down fer a spell an read if’n ya wish ,,, Peace out to one an all frum

Q

PS: I did this re blog an post-it before they came up with the werd of the week Endurance 🙂 so i am jest linking this page to the wordpress weekly photo challenge: Makes it an easy one fer me 2 day! Endurance

Werd of da' week Endurance

Werd of da’ week Endurance

Have a splendid weekend everyone

Quark

Healey Institute for Healers

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Please, join in where ever you are. Awake or asleep. Read this and reflect, and meditate. Wednesday, September 24th 2014 at 8pm EST.

Three months ago, we began a journey towards wholeness by diving deep into our psyches. Through calm reflection and/or meditation, we have explored the foolish “devil’s bargains” that we have made in our past, and what we have given up or what has been taken away from us. We have discovered and continue to discover the things and people which no longer serve us and have learned to healthily cut and break free from them. We have begun to learn to wander with instinct and eat that which feeds our minds, bodies, and souls, and now we delve into what the Sufies call “The Longing, in the wilderness of loneliness” or the pain of the soul.

(I shared and wrote a brief article yesterday on the subject of The Longing:…

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This Letter Means Infinity!

This Letter Means Infinity!

This Letter whats it mean!? well, INFINITY^^^!Yes! above letter means that!? is it greek to u ? er Indian? er what? an well, this letter? wellll whatz in a letter anyhow though huh? er aa misteak! lol a squibbly line under the werd lol…okay well..this post is bout 3 letters i have pics of dat are letterz of importance to me 🙂 so …be it as it may or not be..

“is what it is” as da doc sayz!

Love Knot or Love Note – or a Love Letter??
~~~~Well letterz becometh werdz so…~~~~~~
More like a note than a buncha letters it was a supposed to be!…whats it all mean, a buncha letters,

Whatcha gonna letter do?

Whatcha gonna letter do?

or is it jest werds, one has to ask when they lewk at the same letters for 4 yearz……..what a trip huh,well, time to take this letter! or set of letters! or should i say note that don’t mean a thing down, and start a new day!….with some new Letters!

These letters mean "Moving Forward Without Hesitation"

These letters mean “Moving Forward Without Hesitation”

^^^^^^means moving forward^^^^^^^^ -without hesitation! MY NEW LETTERS!,on the right side of my motorcycle

,,even if it is greek to U ,,,er Indian !

as it might be 🙂 lol………..er chinese lol..er ya jest say ,,wow datz greek to me!….Well……

its jest LETTERS RIGHT!.

Don’t mean a thing…lol…or do they ,,one has to wunder when they see different letters…frum da’ past an the new..when werds is jest werdz and letters are jest letterz what can one say,???,, what means what and what means the mostest!?..

3 letterz an p.o.t. lol geez oh well…..

Plenty Of Trouble as they said in da ol dragnet show lol…

LETTERS!

the letters i have  above are from my motorcycle..right and left side covers, the one means “INFINITY”! and well the other Means

“MOVING FORWARD WITHOUT HESITATION”

THE OTHER WELL IS A NOTE OR A SET OF LETTERS THAT ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE MEANT SOMETHING ALSO, LEFT 4 YEARS AGO ON MY BEDREWM WALL, auctually it was left unda da pillow lol… GUESS TIME FOR SOME NEW LETTERS ON THE BEDREWM WALL HUH!…OK OVER AN OUT FROM DA’ q ENUFF BOUT LETTERS on a wall an a motorcycle AN WELL, LOVE KNOTS AND NOTES an Letters!.so 2 INFINITY AND MOVING FORWARD WITHOUT HESITATION, I THINK ONE MIGHT GET THE POINT AT  THAT RIGHT?  WELL?….U TELL ME …BOUT THE

LETTERS!

long letters short letters, one letter 2 letter 3 letter

4 whatcha gonna letter do?

i wunder says the HP! lol..

“”””””Hasty letters , Nasty letters, Love letters, Pain letters, Gain letters, Same letters, Naughty letters, Naughty thoughts bout naught, Nice letters,Trained letters, Naked bodies, neglected mind Blamed letters? frum da sarcasticaly blind!

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Insane Heartbreaking letters? to Smokin letters, Refraining letters, to Sustaining letters…that are well maintaining letters of truth or consequenses or not! er senseless? what evr was the plot?“or the cost”jest a heart broken is all! an letters lost!”

windy long letterz of a lotta though T bout naught?:(, wacked letters toa a kind one ever now an again its been…

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“””””””oh love knot –

~ give it a thought er not ~
was all in the knot  tied eons ago – once upon a tyme
once upon a tyme –

when i wrote a ryme so kind
an loving with a letter to send on the mend-

from this mind so kind
all the same werds is jest werds without action ya know,
Was all dem Letters Jest Werdz er what-knot ove love er thought?
one here has to really wunder a lot bout what one was taught……
when all that was evr really sought
was a kind
LETTER!
an a KIND THOUGHT!.

Guess I gonna LETTER do whatevr she wanna do ! say da’ Q..time to move forward without hesitation to my infinity! an beyond,,,

Namaste’ 2 u frum Q.

Can’T always live life to the “T” ya know.da’ purfekT!..sumetimez dere’s gotz to be a Z lol…or a me an not jest a U…lol..

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Letters

For this week’s challenge, share a photo with letters — no matter the alphabet. As you look through your lens, think about how your image might convey something bigger: a snapshot of how we communicate with one another, even if we don’t speak the same language.

Image of the Brooklyn Flea Market by Cheri Lucas Rowlands.

Chances are, if you’re a publisher and reader on the internet, you’re interested in language — in the way we communicate with each other, and the pieces we put together to do so, whether in English or Spanish, Arabic or Korean, Thai or Greek.

We type sentences on our keyboards and scribble notes in journals. We spray tags and murals on walls everywhere in the world. We carve our initials on wood to mark we were here or there. And we stumble upon letters and words wherever we go — in outdoor markets, on doors, across storefronts, or inside bathroom stalls.

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SO POINT OF THE LONG BLOG FOR WELL, ONE LETTER!

well, –  SUMTIMEZ!

ONE LETTER! jest don’t say it all …sumtimes ya got to use 2 er 3 er 4 er more to get ur point across,,,if ya evr do ,,,well that all depends upon what letters ya choose to use don’t it now,,,sumtimez ya jest got to stop also one letter short of  uckin’ up if ya know what i mean also, well this is werdpress ya know,,,keep on keepin on everyone, and enjoy da’ picture show er as it might be today Da’ Werd Show 🙂

🙂

it’s all up to u and yes as always “Crashing is Not an Option!”

An over an out from Q 4-25-2014

~ Jest Fer 2Day – Live fer it now while it is what it is! ~

This Letter Means Infinity!

This Letter Means Infinity!

 

 

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