Sending money by Paypal is free

 

Did u Know u could send money free on the internet to anyone in the werld with paypal?

well, ya can an it is really awesome …within seconds ya can send someone cash…….if i did not have the internet……..be it that it is jest “what it is presentlY” an i am lucky i do! weekly i travel the werld with all my subscribers…has become my full time job now…and am hoping my quarksire.com an all the articles an time i have put into this is werth something to someone out there in the world….

I know it has been worthwhile when someone that came across my page found sobriety an some extra strength out of reading the right article at the right time in their lives…i have had e-mails regarding that an warms my heart to know i made the correct decision years ago when i was on a limited budget in life…Internet or T.V.? well i chose the internet an for that am very thankful…so at this point in my life i need help keeping internet an myself alive it appears……any help at all would be appreciated 4 life by me…….4 every 20 bucks extra i got adds up to another 2 days of life for me… the gas ability to get to dialysis an back rides on this very fact!..So; out of the choices i have made over the years..this is one that means a lot to me…I have the internet still…but i keep loosing it every month cuza cash flow problems an go da last week er so without… cuza expenses related to kidney dialysis an operations an hospital visits etc etc..an traveling is costing me 300 plus a month. So here i am thinking bout; what if i DID NOT HAVE THE NET? i would have lotsa money for my expenses….
i have prolly bout 10,000 dollars of time an money invested into this site over the years…I do not have cable tv or streaming tv as a result of this choice also….

ckick here to help keep quarksire an his web werld alive!

https://www.paypal.me/quarksire

  or if ya prefer the old way well, the mailing adress 4 da Q is Quarksire aka mike weed @ 1112 gunbarrel rd. pagosa springs ; colorado 81147
so now i feel it is time to put a donate here button on my page for those long term readers that have got something positive outa my post-it werld here…….if ya got a paypal account it is easy an free to send $$$ cept the amount u are sending lol…

Recently a relative sent me some money by wire an it cost them 25 bucks ; well with paypal it doesn’t cost anything to send money to anyone on the planet if they have an account! an within seconds also ; is 2 kewl fer skewl really!.

     So, ?  If per chance? ya have any extra resources i am in serious need to say the least,,,am literally fighting for my life on a weekly basis now…. I actually love my life as fuked up as it is it jest is that “IT IS WHAT IT IS!” BOUT IT!


In recovery every other day frum dialysis so i do not get a lot done anymore cept water my garden etc etc an werk on my car so i can get back an forth…..sleep till noon a lot. Then in the middle of the night i do internet stuff a lot. research, reading an blog posting etc etc…an e-mailin i get prolly 25-50 e-mails a day now frum different people around the werld an follow a lotta blog post-its also is my fun in my spare time an recovery …a way i can travel the werld in a way an reflect upon others lives etc etc an places an things.is quite rewarding ..rather than watching tv……..so for that i pay – an in the end i am hoping i can get some kinda return on my investment….

………………………………………….wish i could !…………


So…if ur a long lost friend that owes me money or a debt now is the time to pay up lol. an if ur a newfound reader please do not be sidetracked by me asking for help “IT IS WHAT IT IS” DATS ALL FOLKS…by the way i am also doing a go fund me site asap to help with this endeavor to LIVE…some more before i leave this ol’ planet…..read more bout da’ plight of my pkd below….da fight of my life……

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Watz a Fistula? Q is asked

DA’ FISTULA PIC!..1st access failed..so second is where it is at..read on for more info…….

wats a fistula they say an ask to me all the time;? heres an explanation @ best @ possible for yaz..I also have been doing lotsa research…So frum what i have learnt bout my fistula is this…# 1 it hurts like a s.o.b. right now. But i will get over it eventually it will become part of my body…..but has only been a few days after the new setup has been done to my artery an my vein structure! . ….this is how it werks ….

A fistula is what your vascular surgeon constructs by “joining an artery to a vein”.


It keeps a direct opening to your veins. This allows an even greater amount of blood to pass through the vein and allows your dialysis to proceed efficiently. In the weeks after surgery, the fistula begins to mature. The vein increases in size and may look like a cord under your skin. The whole process of maturation, which is a beneficial feature that permits the blood flow to increase in the fistula, typically takes 3 to 6 months. Some fistulas may take as long as a year or more to develop fully, but this is unusual. Once matured, a fistula should be large and strong enough for dialysis technicians and nurses to insert the large dialysis needles easily. If it fails to mature in a reasonable period of time, however, you may need another fistula….hopefully that’s not the case for mikey here….

To perform the surgery, your physician joins a large vein under the skin to an artery nearby. The physician divides your vein and sews it to an opening made in the side of the artery. As a result, the blood flows down the arteries into the hand, as usual, and also some of this faster moving blood flows into the veins that lead back to your heart. The blood that normally traveled in your divided vein goes back to the heart through other veins, and there is usually plenty of blood remaining in your artery to supply your hand. Is why my left hand is tingling a lot an numb still in the fingers cuz some circulation has been robbed i guess….doc says it is not enuff to matter ..so okay…

Hemodialysis cleans blood by removing it from the body and passing it through a dialyzer, or artificial kidney. The dialyzer is a filter with two parts: one for blood and another for dialysis fluid, called dialysate. The filter between these two parts has very small pores, allowing some tiny particles to pass through. The particles that are filtered include the toxins that need to be removed from the body such as urea, creatinine and potassium, while larger blood cells and protein the body needs cannot pass through. The filtered blood is then returned to the body.

The process of removing blood from the body, filtering it and returning it takes time. Hemodialysis treatment usually takes three to five hours and is repeated three times a week.

The type of access a person has is important for getting the best dialysis possible. There are three types of access: catheter, arteriovenous (AV) graft and arteriovenous (AV) fistula..and well i got the fistula in my left arm…They were going to put it i by my wrist but after the furst incesion the main vein collapsed an they had to move the spot toinside my elbow….

Arteriovenous (AV) fistula for hemodialysis

A fistula used for hemodialysis is a direct connection of an artery to a vein. Once the fistula is created it is a natural part of the body. This is the preferred type of access because once the fistula properly matures and gets bigger and stronger; it provides an access with good blood flow that can last for decades. Yeahaa lol…. After the fistula is surgically created, it can take weeks to months before the fistula matures and is ready to be used for hemodialysis. People with kidney disease can do exercises including squeezing a rubber ball to strengthen the fistula before use.
Fistula — the gold standard access…they gave me a kidney to squeeze…an said it was okay to excercize my wrist with the clutch lever on morotcycle ..so kewl 🙂 @ least sumptin is werkin right…

The National Kidney Foundation (NKF), Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services (CMS), DaVita Patient Citizens (DPC) and other organizations and experts generally agree that fistulas are the best type of vascular access. Low rates of complications, clotting and infection all contribute to the fistula’s reputation as the “gold standard” of vascular access.

Dialysis experts also generally agree that the safest and longest lasting of the access types is the AV fistula. Because a fistula is made by connecting a vein to an artery, the vein becomes bigger allowing for increased blood flow. The fistula is created from natural parts of the body and can be repeatedly “stuck” to perform hemodialysis treatments.

A fistula is the “gold standard” because:

It has a lower risk of infection than grafts or catheters
It has a lower tendency to clot than grafts or catheters
It allows for greater blood flow, increasing the effectiveness of hemodialysis as well as reducing treatment time
It stays functional for longer than other access types; in some cases a well-formed fistula can last for decades
Fistulas are usually less expensive to maintain than synthetic accesses

While the AV fistula is the preferred access, there are some people who are unable to have a fistula. If the vascular system is greatly compromised, a fistula may not be attempted. Some people have had fistulas surgically created, but the fistula never matured; therefore, could not be used. Some of the drawbacks of fistulas are:

A bulge at the access site that some people feel is unattractive, well no matter 2 me…
Taking several months to mature…okay as long as it werks…
Sometimes never maturing at all…praying for mine to mature properly! is all i can do an by the looks an feel of it it is progressing jest fine.

so this is supposed to be much better than the old skewl method used in the 70’s..catheters an older teck in machinery also ..the dialysis units themselves are light years above the ones of the 80’s etc etc…..

the next 4-6 weeks are weeks for healing 4 me 🙂 an affirmation for me…an Prayers that my fistula keeps functioning properly an matures as it is supposed to…typing on the keyboard here is quite a werkout for the left arm really…so i have to take it bit at a time right now ..little steps..yeah baby steps..

also, is a matter of somehow pulling together the resources i need to fix my transportation an set up an gear up my life for trips 3 times a week 120 miles round trip when that time comes….@ soon as the fistula is healed …an ready to use….something like the pic below will be my home 3 times a week 4 hrs plus each visit…Guess i will get a lotta reading done! and or spend those 4 hours in lala land as my meditation time 3 times a week 🙂 however it be will be something i have to do ..do doubt about it an no fail…? is for me is how to get to there frum here is all…when everything takes cash an ya live on a limited income an ya have sold most evrything ya can that would get ya by into the future…….
To check see that my fistula is werking properly i have to check a few times a day to make sure i can feel the “THRILL” lol …the pulse ya can feel in the fistula …lets ya know it is werking properly…is weird feeling ur heartbeat as a vib in ur left arm…an they call it the “THRILL?” listening to ur own beat…wunder what doc came up with calling it that…..

Anyhow is what it is… I am healing frum ..having the fistula Installed…..and am looking forward to the day actually when i can plug in an start getting my blood filtered properly! once again…an getting back to feeling “normal” whatevr that is ..been a lotta years lol…so the next 6 weeks is about staying alive without having my blood filered an having the toxins build up as they do evr so often…over an over it has been happening for years,, an even though my motto is crashing is not an option? well i crash evr so often cuz my body gets finally toxic an i go down for the count till they stabalize my blood again ussually with a jar er 2 of saline.. because i get also de hydrated …when i crash..an my bp goes sky high……docs are trippin though ..cuz i am able to keep a grip now on my B.P> Blood pressure…which has been in the dangerous level for quite some time..well, i have stabalized it to almost normal…last reading the other day was 130 over 70..bout time …usually i am in the 140’s to the 90 or more @ a norm…….so is good for me to get it down …

Okay take care everyone…Hope this article here was educational to ya if ya never knew what a fistula was….thats what the Q is going thru.whoo hoo…..yeahaa huh! .such @ life .HA!….
PS: THERE ARE many different kinds of kindey malfunctions an disease…the kind i have affects approximately 1 in 600,000 people….so is not that common..but world wide that adds up to a lotta people suffering like me to the same degree or werse…so my prayers for all of them for whatevr its werth ..still everyone goes PKD WHAT never heard of it?….wow is all i can say…jest another day …been kickin my arse down for over 10 years now it has been ..this PKD!…
Next great adventure is i gotta go get a brainscan mri to check see if i have any unruptured anuyersisms …which i am thinking of opting out of because well if i did have any unruptured ones i would have head aches like my dad did…which i did not have? so I don’t think i need to get radiated thata way unless there is a problem..cuz the radiation itself could even cause a prob…when they say that 60% of all cancers of the 20th century exist because of abnormal radiation like X-rays inapproitely directed etc etc…so this one will be ? A question in the mind of Q for the future…
Right now time to heal an get better! an make this fistula thing werk ..an help the “team” they are going to assemble for em to implant a new kidney when the time can come …a few years over due they say they are for me but they are going to go for it anyhow…since now i have the Medicare to pay for it …ha all bout $$$$ yeah right they wouldn’t help me years ago cuz i had no insurance or medicare…but my doc did help me get on disability which took years ..but that barely covers living expenses…so what does one do asks the Q..hm? will keep ya posted! Namaste’ …an over an out till then…………………

Q
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if ya want to read the rest of the original inspiring article click here…below
https://www.davita.com/kidney-disease/dialysis/treatment/arteriovenous-av-fistula-%2597-the-gold-standard-hemodialysis-access/e/1301

Stayin’ Grounded when Lightnin’ Strikes in da’ Mind

****YES LIGHTNIN’ HAS STRUCK! ha….*** So Docs orders are a Fistula! .THEN A KIDNEY TRANSPLANT!
………………whats a Fistula ya say…????????

http://www.fistulafirst.org
Well, it is one of 3 ways to access the body for dialysis….
fistulafirst.org will give ya the info if ya nevr heard of it…
My Kreatine level has reached a deadly point…to the point i have been
toxic to the levels that are not allowable for the normal human body…
My current stage is 8.5 and one year ago it was 4.0 so has doubled in the last year..also my kidneys have stopped filtering..so filtration rate is nill….so as a result i have collapsed twice in the past few weeks now…when that happens they check my rates an my Blood pressure is 230 over 140 an pulse is rapid over 130+….I usually end up vomiting an feeling like i am going to die before it gets werse….these bouts have been happening for years…but as of lately they happen daily now totally sucks….
What sucks is being stranded*** lol with no help fronm the outside….*** seems to be all bout a buck or 2 more to evryone in my werld these days……..DOC SAYS I AM TERMINAL IF I DO NOT GET DIALYSIS……an well.the dialysis can’t start till they do the fistula an it heals…So betweens now an that time is my critical stage in my life the way they put it…biding my time till the 24th when i go in for vein mapping an to set up to get the fistula installed in my arm…is where they join an artery an blood vessel to make a bigger one and an interface to be able to get the needle in to acess blood system to do dialysis………..CATCH 22″ it has to heal for bout 2 months before they can use it….So almost liquid type of diet here for this guy whom can’t filter anything rough no more….Is truly a one day at a time adventure for me here in my werld yes indeed!……
So since my wordpress editor won’t open i thought i’d share this one frum this last year bout stayin grounded…since well, that appears to be a big mission for me presently….All my life doin for others lol.an to get to this point where i need a helping hand…an it’s a boy who cried wolf kinna response i get frum those whom i seek help? i sincerely do not understand…the dog eat dog …mentality of those whom are all bout fear an materialism…duh whats that going to get them in the end i wunder? oh well,,,,,,,,,,The older we all get we know the end is near…the question is though? what can i do to help that inevitable end to last longer..even though i am in pain frum this disease…
Well Best news i have for my own personal world is i have a hell of a good relationship with a Lovely LAdy Friend whom….has helped me along the way Spiritually over the past year……an i feel indebted to her …but WELL…she has offered to give me one of her kidneys if we are a match should i be able to get to the point of the

TRANSPLANT WHICH IS IN ORDER # 2 ORDER FRUM THE DOC! A KIDNEY TRANSPLANT IN 2017 …or i stay on dialysis the rest of my life ….3 times a week 40 miles away? well, we shall see now an time will tell what hap[pens huh..
MEANWHILE…..I will jest try to Keep a grip Practice what i preach! an do the best i can to get through til IT HAPPENS WHATEVR IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!! HOPEFULLY I CAN GET ANOTHER 20 YEARS OUT OF THIS BODY WITH A TRANSPLANT………ACORDING TO THE DOC .WOW….WHAT A LOTTA REALIZATIONS FOR THE DAY TO COMPREHENDE’ HERE!.PEACE OUT TO ONE AN ALL FRUM DA’ q…..

Quarksire

The art of awakening…or waking up should i say!?

groundedStayin Grounded is important when lightnin storms inside da’ mind!

AN STAYIN’ GROUNDED when Lightnin strikes! in da’ mind!… well,
when overwhelmed, sumtimes life being difficult, so it becomes life in the now.

With every new strike!…
to integrate the past into the future truly steals frum the now,,
challenges are inseparable frum being here in dis werld,,,
but do we have to exist in our past any more?
does living in the past help today?
well, the BAD” past i have not forgiven an released…comes back whenever i focus on da’ past! so cure 2 dat is every time a negative or “BAD” memory comes up i must forgive an forget it so it don’t get in my way of today an the future! an make irrational decisions…etc etc..every time i dive..so i don’t dive a lot anymore…Not seeking the…

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When Ya got it ya got it Polycystic Kidney Disease Facts

Behind Closed doors!

Chronically Speaking

over 15 years ago I was Diagnosed accidentally after crashing my snowmobile with ADPKD,

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the doctor had told me that my what my father had died of { an anyuerism }  an he didn’t even know but he did because it is hereditary! 12 years ago with PKD i was diagoosed an evr since it has been traking havoc on my systems. too many cysts for mikey to have a kidney transplant now  i am told 😦 if ya do not know what PKD is please check see the following video; recently i did another stint in hospital for 2 days seems to happen every few months, today i has a lady do a deep photoscopy in my werld, in my abdomen, she says my cysts are all over inside an well is suprised i am still aliv3e.well i’d somehow call that co existin with the pain as i do daily is like my grandma is knitting a blanket she is making for me in side my body with big ol knitting needles…..woza huh..weell video will enlighten ya some to my plight an flights in life …i am in level 4 an have been 4 quite some time now.get sick evry few months when toxic i do ….so check out the vids if ya want to learn more …..till laters i gonna go relax em a bit….till next time 🙂 take care Q keep da sunny side up 🙂 😎 an ur heart in da right place ya might live longer 🙂

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Q yep one in 20,000 people 🙂 mikey is ….

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Tricholemmal Squamous Cell Carcinoma

Greetings2 again 2 U 2 Day…now thats a mouthful, er Headfull i should say!

~~~~an chronically speakin today!~~~~~~

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Tricholemmal Squamous Cell Carcinoma with possible Cranial Infiltration…we shall see….

Matrix Medical Communications; tells mikey!
Jest what i do an don’t wanna hear today…each a living separate living dichitomy.
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The pathological diagnosis was recurrent tricholemmal carcinoma;;;;;;;;yes both da head an da neck are affected here .. 😦 Perineural invasion in aggressive skin carcinomas of the head and neck. Potentially dangerous but frequently overlooked…. jest what i didn’t wannna hear today! …an thingz were going so much betta… oh well…. so fer me instead of radical manuevers of sugery etc etc at the very present unless absolutely reccomended is for me to werk on this bio-energitically… with frequencies…. i always had thought it was jest the little critters er whatnot that eat at the hair follicles and make on bald that was giving me the problems, but apparenmtly it is much more DEEP ROOTED than that! 😦 so hope fully Bio Resonance and re introducing my skin to the correct frequencies etc etc,,,will help me with this out of the sugery room…. as i re-programed my rife machine <{LINK} with the correct frequencies for this i have noticed the similarities and closeness of the frequencies to the frequencies of my adpkd – Polycystic Kidney Disease,<{link} and also the melanoma frequencies are very much the same also…not exact but very close on the spectrum of the over 1000+ frequencies in the human body. So, dynamically an harmonically i werk on this i can with the correct frequency i do so hope to keep me outa and out under of the knife of the surgeon who generally wants to cut me up.
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So, Skin cancer of the head and neck with perineural invasion.
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Perineural invasion occurs in 2% to 6% of cutaneous basal and squamous cell carcinomas of the head and neck and is associated with midface location, recurrent tumors, high histologic grade, and increasing tumor size. Patients may be asymptomatic with perineural invasion appreciated on pathologic examination of the surgical specimen (incidental) or may present with cranial nerve deficits (clinical). The cranial nerves most commonly involved are the 5th and 7th nerves. Magnetic resonance imaging is obtained to detect and define the extent of perineural invasion; computed tomography is used to detect regional lymph node metastases. Patients with apparently resectable cancers undergo surgery usually followed by postoperative radiotherapy. Patients with incompletely resectable cancers are treated with definitive radiotherapy. The 5-year local control, cause-specific survival, and overall survival rates are approximately 87%, 65%, and 50%, respectively, for patients with incidental perineural invasion compared with 55%, 59%, and 55%, respectively, for those with clinical perineural invasion.
Wow , Huh well, so much fun lifeis in the werld of Q with his PKD {Polycystic Kidney Disease} and now this also,,, as if it wasn’t enuff to be chronically fatiqued all the time fighting the PKD i also got a case of a head that feels like it has ants or bees stinging on self a lot on the surface an jest below the skin and scalp.. frum ear to neck to top of head, so we shalll see what the prognosis is and future outlook and adendum to my life is an how it becometh i shall keep ya posted

🙂

…. whoo yeehaaaaaa…..

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Acceptance by Quarksire

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Freedom at Last she had dreamed of

and prayed for for years she now had

Cold as Ice

because of false imaginings and judgements

she then turned her life against me

Yes regretfully so; a true story fer da’ Q

boo hoo…

Acceptance that love flowed downhill into an icy stream

Is a well, hard thing to do

fer da’ Q still.

Guess ones got to do what they got to do

regardless of Q

😦 Well, cheer up , it ain’t all that bad i guess, before i die if i am lucky , i might jest find what she couldn’t find in me that i had for her…LOVE, once again.we shall see, for now i know i love my dogz, my life, my ex to be wife yep but oh well, and well, love my day to day my house my mountains wildlife an katz, even though i have to deal with 24/7 pain frum my PKD– this shit sucks werld,,,if ya got it ya know what i mean …anyhow till next post-it here bye.

Q-bird…….