How I want You by Quarksire

Yeah well, whatevr happened to “poetry by da’ Q”? well heres a piece i put together at 3 am for my other half in life…one i would consider my “woman 4 Life” ….when reallY it’s all bout {her} an US!….

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❤ HOW I WANT YOU! ❤

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I just want to kiss you like you’ve never been kissed before. The kind of kiss that starts at the lips but quickly spreads to every single extremity you have. The kind of kiss that for a split second makes you forget your own name. ❤ The one that will replay in your head until the next time you get to kiss me again. ❤

I want to be able to be the one to make you forget the pain you’ve felt before. I want your last broken heart to be your last broken heart. I want to be able to heal you and remind you how incredibly lovable you are. I want you to be able to look at me and see nothing but happiness. I want you to know that I’m not going anywhere.

I want us to fight. I want to fight so hard but have no fear that one fight will tank us. We’re going to argue. We’re going to disagree. I just want us to know that we’re going to get through it and be better for it. I am able to admit defeat when i am wrong also. We’re going to be able to express when things don’t work. I want US to know that we’ve got this.

❤ It Being a WE thing – IndeeD! ❤

I want you to be comfortable enough with me to tell me every single scary thing in your past. Sure it’s going to change the way I look at you but it’s not going to change it the way you think it will. It’s going to make me look at you as brave. It’s going to make me look at you with pride. It’s going to make me see you for who you are. And it’s going to make me like you more.

I want to wake up to you next to me every morning instead of waking up alone. I’ve never wanted that before. I’ve never wanted someone to infiltrate my space and be around as much as I want you to be. I want you to be the reason why I don’t sleep diagonally anymore. I want to be da’ reason u smile when u wake up! an vice-a-versa! 🙂

I want a front row seat when you finally see everything that I do. It’s everything I see when you’re opening up and letting me into those corners of your heart that not many others have ventured to before. The rest of the world only gets a glimpse of who you are but I’m the lucky one who gets to see every part. It’s a beauty that can’t be replicated. Truly honored i feel cuza you! 🙂

I want to and must trust you fully. I want to trust you more than anyone I’ve ever trusted before. I’ve believed in a lot of people who have let me down. It’s hard to remember sometimes that you’re your own person and not any of the people before. You are someone who continues to prove every day that you’re trustworthy. You have shown me honesty beyond measure now! in its truest form! ❤ ❤ ❤

I want you to have your own life separate of me. Even though I want to be with you all the time, I want you to also keep your individuality. You deserve to have hobbies that don’t include me. You’re allowed to have time to do the things you love in order to recharge. We all have times that we need to be alone. I don’t want you to think that I’ll be offended if you need that. All I want is for you to do whatever self-care you need.
I want you to be happy. That’s it. That’s all it ever comes down to. Wanting YOU 2 be HAPPY! ❤

Whatever happiness looks like for you, I want that. I want that to be the main goal of your life. I want you to look at your life with content and satisfaction. While I can’t immunize you against pain, I want you to have more good days than bad. Play ur music, take ur walks, enjoy ur drives etc etc..

I don’t know what’ll happen with us but I do know is that you’re the best thing I’ve felt in a while. So let’s not focus on the future and live in the present. We don’t have to define anything. We don’t owe any explanation. Let’s just be us. Live in da’ NOW an get over the PAST! 🙂 with LOVE! thats how
I WANT YOU! my dearest! yep yep………..oh did i say 4 ever..well 4 ever ..4 this life-this body! anyhow!…………………I jest want you!

an want to be urz alwayz also!

TO 4 EVR BE HAPPY JOYOUS AN FREE WITH ME AN CUZA ME! NO STRINGS ATTACHED! JEST ETERNITY! THATS ALL! HAHA…. 🙂 ……..Jest4ever…. :)……YEP THATS HOW I want you! 🙂

❤ 4 ever an a DAY! ❤

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Lost an Found ThoughtZ frum da’ deep within Q’s Hardrive!

….Reflections! Yes Indeed!…

frum loan duck publishin lol…

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August 2016 echo lake @ 7 am Pagosa Springs, Colorado

Found dis’ one deep inside da’ hard drive ..lol…got a laugh er 2 when i read it waz upon reflection…..an so, thought u might also..it waz titled: 

FRum Start 2 End –

Once a rhyme upon a tyme.. by Q

Frum now till when rather than start 2 end

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Problems within the field….

Problems with the Heart…

Problems frum the start

of every day upon awakenin’…

*an change of perception*

Again, situation s only

Dat need a solution!

No problem! Right?

~so~

wunderin what one has to gain

when daily they wake in pain!

when healing don’t even come when

standing out in the rain…

so, frequently now.

one can’t wash away the pain…

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when knowing one is crumbling

an when knowing one is tumbling

down into the deep abyss…

one can fall while standing up straight

frum all the souls weight…..

     Life unscrolled is all one knows now!.

whence can be read the script an da’ play dat lay ahead

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so whilst in ur bed in ur head

one sumtimes cumes up with

 the DEsign of another day

wit hopefully

no tears to be shed.. an

all old tears washed away

down the stream of consciousness!

to the end of time

to – once again

be captured by the open mind of another soul

as life goes on

soul to soul

know one really knows

but the director…

so internally say

U are da’ director of ur very own play;

where the whole werld is a play

an ur whatevr actor u choose to be:)

yes indeed once we do know

we do have a choice

Love er Fear? ur choice

whats it gonna be fer da new day

Love er Fear?

ye hear. ye hear? 🙂 🙂

Dat FreQuency…U know so dear!

Listen up…

It’s life Dat lies jest ahead

inside an out of ur head!

Q

………….an in da’ end’ jest remember……….

YOU CANNOT HAVE THE FRAME WITHOUT THE PICTURE!..or can ya?

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Do U evr feel like a lone Duck! ? 🙂

Well on a serious note now…yes back to life..I do not want to bombard everyones mailboX wit stuff they aren’t interested in so….Stay Tuned !

My next post-it is all bout dat..Healing…most diseases…..rife an life…u shall see..cuz one has to be reminded of ….da’ freQuencies evr so often ya see….!

Living at da’ Rainbows End

I say sumtimez ….I am the swift, uplifting rush,,,of colors abounding in da’ sky…when livin’ @ where rainbows begin an end!

well jest split da difference. Half an Half!

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Other Photo Challenge shotZ frum round da’ Werld!…seems to be more an more evry week also… lotsa sites to check out……

and the rainbow landed on me!

and the rainbow landed on me!

Share of da’ week is a couple of pics frum my frt yard the other day!an a shot frum a previous season {my Fav}…an a poem by William Woodworth!.

THE RAINBOW My heart leaps up when I behold A rainbow in the sky: So was it when my life began; So is it now I am a man; So be it when I shall grow old, Or let me die! The child is father of the man; And I could wish my days to be Bound each to each by natural piety…

under da' rainbow!

under da’ rainbow!

This time of the year is my fav…cuz of the weekly an sometimes daily rainbows in da sky in the 4 corners wherever one goes an the showers exist!…er the moonsoons i should hope, so as much as possible this year…keepin the mountains wet an green! lush an lively!..

half shadowed here :)

half shadowed here 🙂

RAINBOWS MAKE THE SKY HALF AN HALF IT APPEARS- SumtimeZ!

So, yep still alive here at the end of the rainbow, werkin on a colorful, warm but not to hot summer here…ah but life in da’ rockies …sumtimes its a grand slam with rainbows an a whatnot landing in me werld..Livin @ da rainbows end….yes sumtimes it’s like livin in or under 🙂 da’

POT of GOLD! lol… hopin’ part of the pot will pour out on me.

da’ pot of gold that is what else ? …

ok back 2 werk lunch break over!

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2bowcheck out related posts concernin livin’ @ rainbows end Below!….

TAKE CARE ALL!

🙂 … Q … 🙂

Signals to her Heart

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* Signals to her Heart *

Out where the ocean beats its calm thunder
against grainy shores of quartz and sand,
she strolls, hands pocketed in a flowing gown
of pearl-like luminance.
I can see her with hair the color of sky’s deepest night
when it whispers to the sun’s widow
to masquerade as the sickle’s light.
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So this is she.
The only one who knows me as I am
though untouched is my skin.
The world from which she steps pounces from mystery,
announces her calm purity
like a willow tree bent to still waters.
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In this unhurt place she takes her body
to the shoreline listening for sounds beneath the waves
that tell her what to do.
How great is her love?
Will it take her across the sea to me?
Does she hear my heart’s voice before the translation?
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She scoops some sand with her ivory hands and
like an hourglass the particles fall having borrowed time
for a chance to touch her beauty.
Her lips move with prayers of grace as she tells
the wind her story;
even the clouds gather overhead to listen.
Her gestures multiply my love with the sign of infinity,
disentangled from all calculations,
adorning her face with a poetry of tears.
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I am unsummoned though I hear her voice
so clear it startles me.
I watch her because I can.
I know her because she is me.
I love her because she is not me.
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In all my movement, in the vast search
for something that will replace me,
I have found her on this shoreline, her faint footprints,
signatures of perfection that embarrass time with their fleeting nature.
I am like the cave behind her watching from darkness,
hollowed from tortured waves
into a vault that yearns to say what she cannot resist.
A language so pure it releases itself
from my mouth like long-held captives
finally ushered to their home;
jubilant gods dancing away from sorrow’s reach.
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She turns her head and looks past me as if I were a ghost unseen,
yet I know she sees my deepest light.
I know the ocean is no boundary to her love.
She is waiting for the final path to my heart to become clear.
And I am waiting for something deep inside
to take my empty hands and fill them with her face
so I can know the rehearsals were numbered,
and all the splinters were signals to her heart.
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Wingmakers Chamber 16 Painting

Wingmakers Chamber 16 poetry & Art

 

~ Nothing Matters ~

Space is curved
so no elevator can slither to its stars.
Time is a spindle of the present
that spins the past and future away.
Energy is an imperishable force
so permanence can be felt.
Matter flings itself to the universe,
perfectly pitiless in its betrayal of soul.
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You can only take away
what has been given you.
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Have you not called the ravens the foulest of birds?
Is their matter and energy so different than ours?
Are we not under the same sky?
Is their blood not red?
Their mouth pink, too?
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Molten thoughts, so hot they fuse space and time,
sing their prophecies of discontent.
Listen to their songs in the channels of air
that curl overhead like temporary tattoos
of light’s shimmering ways.
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Am I merely a witness of the betrayal?
Where are you who are cast to see?
How have you been hidden from me?
Is there a splinter that carries you to the whole?
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If I could speak your names I would call you to my side
and take your hands so gentle you would not see me,
feeling only the warm passage of time
and the tremor of your spine moving you to weep.
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Space is curved so I must bend.
Time is a spindle so I must resolve its center.
Energy, an imperishable force I must ride.
And matter, so pitiless I refuse to be betrayed.
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So I stand naked to the coldest wind
and ask it to carve out an island in my soul
in honor of you who stand beside me in silence.
Lonely, I live on this island assured of one thing:
that of space, time, energy, and matter; nothing matters.
Yet when I think of you in the cobwebbed corner,
hoveled without wings
like a seed planted beneath a dead tree stump,
I know you are watching
with new galaxies wild in your breast.
I know you are listening
to the lidded screams smiling their awkward trust.
All I ask of you is to throw me a rope sometimes
so I can feel the permanence of your heart.
It’s all I need in the face of nothing matters.

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~above poetry is frum wingmakers chamber 16~
SHIVANANDI ADI
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PROLLY OME OF Y FAV PIECES TO LISTEN TO ROUND THE HOUSE…….. lol

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Wishing Light an Secret Language

Wingmaker Chamber 15 Poetry

Wingmakers Chamber 15 Poetry

 

Wishing Light

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sun walks the roof of the sky

with a turtle’s patience.
Circling endlessly amidst the black passage
of arrival and retreat.
Moon can shape shift
and puncture the confidant darkness.
The weaker sister of sun
it bleeds light even as it dwindles
to a fissure of fluorescence.
Black sky like a monk’s hood draped
over stars with squinted eyes.
Stewards lost,
exiled to overspread
the dark lair of the zodiac.
This silent outback where
light is uprooted and cast aside
beats like a tired clock uneven.
It dreams of sunlight passing so
it can follow like a parasite.
Tired of meandering in absence it
wants to live the speed of light and feel its directness.
Wishing to stay alive in light years
and not some recumbent eternity.
Desiring the sharp pain of life
to the dull, numbing outskirts of ancient space.
Darkness follows light like a tireless
wind that pours over tumbleweeds.
But it always seems to outlast the people
if not the light.
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~~Secret Language

Night in bed

eyes closed, ears open,
listening to the secret life outside my window.
The liturgy of the nocturnal.
Sounds and rhythms of
swift-footed crickets
giving testimony to the trees that overlook
the native church like great archways
carved of Roman hands.
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The intricate language of tiny animals
sweeping through the night air
unfaltering they hold me spellbound.
How can I sleep without an interpreter?
If only I knew what they were saying.
I could sleep again.
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The above frum wingmakers chamber 15 along with the art werk above also..and artifacts also..read more here go tot he original wingmakers site click here…

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Life Matterz July 2014

Happy July 4th 2 U frum Q

Happy July 4th 2 U frum Q

If ya wish to jest post one pic to werdpress here well, read this, Not to knock the new bee boop slow as crap web page designer it does not do what i need to be able to do at werdpress such as change text color size and font etc etc,,,Not the way Ol Mr. cut an paste here does it anyhew… so here is the trick if you want to use the old style pagebuilder at werdpress, ya do a title post with a couple of werds then ya check as a draft and save it then view it, and at the bottom of ur new webpage ya built is an edit link, click on that and will take ya to the old werdpress pagebuilder… Meanwhile have a happy 4th everyone, BBQ on a mountaintop for all the section 6ers today here 🙂 take care Peace pout to U frum Q

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Watch your thoughts – they become your words

Watch your words – they become your actions

Watch your actions – they become your habits

Watch your habits – they become your character

Watch your character – it becomes your destiny

Have a Well Charged weekend

Have a Well Charged weekend

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A Lone White Wolf 4 Two Cents Tuesday

This White Wolf sees!
bLUEANGELWOLF’S HISTORY
***** diggin’ fer truth *****

an is what it is postit* by Q

Quarked White Wolf Dug for Truth to find Lies an betrayal instead :(

Quarked White Wolf Dug for Truth to jest find a snake Lies an betrayal instead 😦

TWO CENTS TUESDAY here bout my last 5 yearz
~~~~~~~~~ once upon a time ~~~~~~~~~~
till used an abused for 50 years
she was a innocent ignorant beautiful soul
till struck with da’ tree of knowledge…….of..
free flight an Loves delight….
till, NOW; a very dark wolf yess indeed…….
ignorance is NOW da’ excuse
to be a liberated from being human human 😦
but beyond gods judgement and or the universes also…
SO! cause effect and karma an dharma will now be so 😦
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she decided to say farewell, and call him an old love….
whilst her bleeding heart is a soul now torn apart,,
such a sacrafice for the ego,
Intentional in ur face neglect denial of truths an
abuse and taking what is not hers 😦 her new life book story
all for the glory of what i wunder? for a few dollars more?
an oh yeah her art commission? wtf ?
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torn apart from all her reality … to new creational beliefs 😦
she misses already the days of the future passed…
those days she knew would only last in…… da memory of her mind…
although would never come to again pass…….
on account of false flafz an false fears
deciding heart was not a home and home was not really a heart
love she began to see as torn apart…before it came to pass……
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believing she deserved a heart made out of Gems of the Universe
he offered her all of that an more!
tHen SHE TOOK THE POT OF GOLD AND SHUT THE DOOR 😦
she then decided to become a thing of a promise never to be….
jest at last to realize……..that she herself didn’t “deserve”
his smile
his love
his soul
his life….
jest the money he sent to her for years
😦 yeah right well , well…
what was it she really yearned…..
all the poems and stories and fantasies turnt to lies
– so now…free at last!
Libeerated from having to be human…
she decided to be selfish instead and attack an berate…an falsify so….
not the angel he once met!
so take da’ money an run 😦
lies hiding deciet neglect disregard and pain
to became her story 4 her 4 ever in time…Hipocracy and dishonorable betrayal… akashically!
~ No longer an innocent soul ~
she decided shed be better off with the incriminating lying wolves
of darkness…than the “White Wolf”
rare in breed yes indeed! was dis’ wolf they called weed
a loner on a mountaintop….ol’ white wolf getting older by the day
waits for a not so similar mate to come thy way,,, i guess……….
so, but all one can do is dig in; an do what one has to do to survive
without the bluengelwolf hanging round lurking daily trolling and patrolling
~~~~~~~ My 2 Cents Werth ~~~~~~

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The Werd Waz CelebRate

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a note er 2 bout the dissertation above ……..

whilst i watch the wolves troll around an hipocritically

click like on all kinds of things than in front of my face blatently ACTS 1000% opposite of all said,,,true hipocracy in my eyes:(
song of the day? thought of da day? ……hmmmm? ran outa fluidity and thoughtz jest like my life has over the last few yearz… totally insane…to me when “Humans Betray Humans”. i mean why ……..no clue sayz dis’ ol’ white wolf…….why with intention dumping on and hurting on people u claim to love…
ya , so, when da innocent soul becomes not so innocent out of choice,,,one can only wunder what got into that soul in the first place to …..CHANGE ? what they said they were and how and why etc etc…well, one day at a time is all one can do an accept that if other wish to lie cheat steal or kill and mame minds an men etc etc, to viciously and cruelly publickly attack with sarcastic werdz an visions not of love, is disheartening to me,,, well all one can do is pray for them to find themselves someday again…Is hard to accept ya can’t change another whom might go mental, but ya can’t …they are going to do what they bred the mind to do anyhow…out of either fear or love is bout it….. so peace to those whove been hurt on so, if ur one of them also, jest got to move forward , one minute – one day at a time …an accept the fact ya can’t fix others , an the harder ya try well, will bring ya down to that level and space, and is not a space i can afford to be, so fact of the matter is i got to one has to change perception, jest a wee bit, to accept the insanity. move forward without hesitation and ask god to forgive those i cannot. simple as that i guess.but not so simple really So, ..for those that do not have the courage or spine to make ammends and be honest and true to those they hurt on and or do other totally way off the mark things like lie steal or cheat on ,,,well, all ya can do is pray for them……..at that point an move on!!!.an if they well, kill themselves or drink themselves to death cuz they would not listen to u, or because their conscience finnally gets to them, well try not to take it to personal, if ya hold urself responsible for thier actions, even if they affected u in every way ?….well, sick people are jest sick is all there is to it, and well, only the god of thier understanding can save them from the lack of innocent they have now become……..Q
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ps women an men alike whom strike blows with werds to get a negative reactions from thier mate really suck, some push it to the point of getting violent re-actions or werds thrown back for thier actions,,,which in my book is very apprapo,sumtimes, what can one do but defend themselves frum insane thinking anyhow.,,but well,, the accusers are always the victim it seems when they are really the ones perpertrating the crimes to start with, , an it goes frum there,,,then after that the lying and the denial and all the other bs that follows also,, what for to try to justify or rationalize it all and why they did what they did,,then to only but judge and act on the response as the FAULT! what herasey!,,,seems like i have been dealing with these kinna folks all over the planet, an for many yearz, ..where if i turn the other cheek i get slapped round and if i fight back well i am guilty of abuse like my abuser ,,,has the werld all reall gone that mad really now ,,i mean c’mon ,,maybe one day i’ll meet a lady whose got a grip ….and is honorable an not jest a gold digger out for a dollar or 2 more..holds a heart of love and not fear..yes definitely not a fear monger that hangs her god out on a cross to dry and well, an definitely not someone that says they are an angel that wouyldnt hurt a flY,,,,cuz in the end ,,,thats alwayz been the biggest common fly of the hurting kind 😦 whom lives with lacks and in judgemenbt and pain and misery of nevr having things jest right for them, 😦 always negative and not happy ain’t fer me; i’d rather keep living alone , …i don’t need no misery buddie!.nor hipocracy and lies I needed a woman that loved me was all , an she knew that, an it is a 2 person werld here but she knew that salso said shed be back to help after a 77 day stay? 4 years ago 😦 ….she calls her crap to me lifes lessons her abuseive fearbased jelous love 😦 ,,,then took the money and shut me off ,,,imagine that huh….yeah all her blogs were to me for the last 5 years, what hogwash huh My blueangel turnt wolf 😦 yeah lifes lesson to be ripped off by an
HONEST ANGEL THAT WOULD NOT HURT A FLY YEAH RIGHT :(guess thats what happens when ya grow up believing in humpty dumpty and cinderella and all da fairy talez lol.whilst being verybally an mentally abused by ur parents 😦 ..then all ur life ya dig for gold and once ya find gold like she did da Q here well, turns it all into sand instead,,,, well we all have to lie in our own bed, an if we got a conscience well….we know whatz in da head..all dere is to it no excuses no rational or lies will hide the factz! nor entitle one to not see it either ..the truth that is,,,some believe they are “entitled” to lie cheat and steal well well,,,is all i can think; bummer says dis lone white wolf, not on da hunt but definitely in need…oh what fun it musta been to burn on the Q here for years 😦 not , simply crazy… Q 😦

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***so well, heres as good as any place to say it, any single ladies that might be in for a change, Q is only gettin older an is tired of living on his colorado mountaintop “ALONE” …not like i am taking applications here lol…but well, maybe it is me thats applying 🙂 so yeah thats it turn it round a bit 🙂 i have lived the single life 5 years 2 long now! an a few years before that so, thought i knew who my eternity was an well that is only me..presently, an a buncha eternal  good times an bad times a past i guess, was livin single and celebate for honor an a reason, but well, those following me know da story, so anyone single, footloose an fancy free ? fer some fun let me know, well i think it’d be fun, depends on what one does now huh whether its “fun” er not an i like to have fun, yes that is in my agenda, she said fun an wunderful! was not in hers so, i am ,,,well right here right now all there is to it 🙂 who be U ?

******* Q *******

quarksire at the big Y dot com

why because dats me an i am yes lewking for a mate to come hang out with me in colorado 🙂 chow! 🙂

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Fer a bit a Love Screaming in Digital click here

NO PRESSURE NO PROBLEM!

my answer in many situations….

Ur Love WILL Conquer All Thingz:)

Namaste’

2 U frum Q

> Rage for Order Neue Regel <


Sometimes just being with somebody, rather than words, is all that is needed to help…well so that was my 2 cents werth……Hope everyone has a great HUMP DAY!

Q.